He said He quits

B came online. Im up still its about 4am. B came on about 3am finally responding to my pages several hours later. His spelling was bad and I figured hed be intoxicated. Which he said he wasnt sober but he drove home to call me.

Ugh, 🙁

I tried talking to him, but the ultimate outcome of the convo was what he said below.

“ok fine. I tell ya what I quit. Ufck this,your not happy, nothing i do makes you hapy, fuck this. Im done. your better off without me. I quit. good bye”

And he logged off,

Just then Mr C called, wow, what timing. And he said “Do I need to drive up there right now?” which was very sweet, but also flashbacks of ending things with my Ex and B doing that very same thing for me. 🙁 And here it is B I am crying over and dont understand.

I told Mr C I would love for him to, but just not at this time would it be a good idea, heck it would almost be morning by time he got here and the whole thing with my children seeing him here like that.

He said “Victoria, the thing is you are trying so hard to fix something but you cant, its him, you are trying to work on this and meet him there, but something isnt right”

Which I have been saying this since early on with B, there is some block that gets thrown in the way, for some reason he has issues with doing things with me and I have many scenarios where its as if B sabotages them just before they are to happen. And I dont understand it at all.

I do love B. Yeah Im hurt, but at the same time Im not hateful towards him. I still hold immense love for him, thats what makes this all so much harder.

Im supposed to go to Mr Cs to swim tomm. He said “Tell ya what, Ill drive out instead and pick you guys up, take u to breakfast, then we can come to my place, swim, spend the day together, then Ill take you back and we can hang out in the eve when the kids go to bed and have some one on one personal time” I said ok. I told him Im in a very weird place right now, and he said “Heck like Im not? I have my situation also, and now you and hearing about you and him” just reaffirming to me he understands. but then he says ” I hate to say this Victoria, but B’s loss is my gain”

Ok Im gonna try to sleep, Mr C is gonna call me at 10am.