Financial Frustration

Dear Diary,

This is a bit of a downer entry. Its just the way life is at the moment. It wont stay this way, but for right now its a bit frustrating.

Im Negative $111 in my bank acct. I have the car ins written to send, so Im holding off to the very end of the late fee deadline of the 15th to send it out. I have no mortgage payment at this point for April 1st. And I get paid in 2 weeks. So I will be mailing that one late also. This is probably the tightest I have been in some time. Im going on month 2 now and I dont think any child support will be on the way. Attorney office is supposed to get the court order to show cause and get all of this stuff taken care of, they said it will take about a month. We shall see, I dont think the whole legal thing is as predictable as they make it sound. SO I guess I always expect the worst.

I had to take my youngest to the Dr today, he has pink eye. So I missed a couple hours of work today, and tommorow I have to take off since they said it takes about a day for it to clear up. My Mom couldnt get any of her work done today since she ended up with the both of them, so she told me tommorow I will have to stay home. Im going to probably go into work for an hour with the kids because there are some things I HAVE to do, and they wont mind if they are there for that time frame.

Boyfriend had his first day off also, forced day off cause his car is running badly and is getting worked on. So he is stranded himself, plus hes working like crazy. We havent spoken very much. His conversations are so Non exsistant these days. He doesnt have much to say or to share. So it does suck, I dont like to be the one always doing all the talking.

I also missed my Domestic Violence group today due to the dr appt. I was to graduate and get my certificate today and 3 of us were and he said they would throw us a little party. 🙁 So I was really looking forward to it, but life events popped up.

Its just frustrating. My Mom has stocked my fridge full of food (God Bless her) And I often wonder at times if she decided to sell all of their apartment rentals to be able to better help me with the children? She does so much for us. Ugh I wanna cry right now.

Im doing ok, my mind is ok, I mailed off my tax returns. So in about a month or two Child support will be established, my tax return will save my butt big time. OH! And my sister who is the CPA also gave me a form to submit to my employer so that I can get the earned income credit all year in small amounts instead of waiting till the end of the year. She said “Well you need money NOW, so lets get it going for you” So I have to wait till Mon when boss is back.

Lord, thank you for taking care of us, I know I need to be patient, its frustrating, but we have food, love and support all around us, and I know we will make it through this time.