Part of Mr C Chat
Me: Hey you
Mr C:hi…
Me: Just never heard from ya again after thurs
nite noisy call. If you dont want to talk its cool just say
so ok?
Mr C: not sure what to say. rather uncomfortable at the moment…
me: ok
Mr C: What do you want me to do?
Me: nothing, just had 2 calls from ya thurs
nite and never heard back after calling
Mr C: I know. I called and said I was sorry about
the way I ended that session.Then U called me back a few times, but I was
in Noisey land… (Interjecting here, I called back once and said thank u for the message, then he called me later while at a concert and I said call me back when I can hear him better)??
Mr C: Look, you made a choice here… And, after
the GR-8 time we had sunday, it hurts.
Me:ok
Mr C: I’m looking for an opportunity, to start a relationship, not be the “Best Buddy”
Me: yes but I also told you what was up with
me, I was honest as you asked me to be, you told me I wouldnt loose you as a
friend
Mr C: Been through that SO many times it stinks
Me: ok so dont tell me its ok to be friends and
sound like you will be around if its not what you want
Mr C: Right, but being a friend is gonna be at a
different level, so we’ll chat and stuff.. Can’t go doing more than that…
Me: ok
Mr C: We’re both gonna feel awkward. I just feel like I keep going through the
same thing, and it’s weird, It’s like I’m losing out to other men who
offer something I cant,bigger wallet, bigger dick, bigger WHATEVER, havent got a friggin clue
Me: you often told me to relax, when Id start
to share with you things I was feeling, you would just tell me to be quiet,
or kiss me or say shh , and Id stop, make sure you arent pushing
things faster then a person is moving and thinking they are farther then they
really are is all
Mr C:??????? make sure you aren’t pushing thinings
faster???and thinking they are farther then they
really are????? don’t get those…
Me:You are hurt because you thought things
were more serious between us correct?
Mr C: I’m hurt cause you lied to me and kept
telling me things that made me think we were something more serious…. I
found somebody, something Wonderful… Which doesn’t come along very often
in this world.
Me:C?
Mr C: What?
Me:I told you how I felt about B, how I
thought I was in a different place then you were with your B, and you would tell me know you understood
where I was, you told me to follow my heart, you told me
your my friend and that I wouldnt loose you, so how did I lie? I told you honestly how i felt about all
this and thats why its where it is right now between us cause I was honest about it
MR C: Yeah, every time we talked, you told me how
much MORE he was done… You couldn’t take it anymore, It kept gettin progressively more intense.
The feelings that he had blown it
Me: Yes that is correct
Mr C: Then the two(referring to his ex and my B) of them get sweet talkie on us,
and you bail, right back into his arms, I lost you
Me: its not a competition
Mr C: It sucks. Look you made you choice… Enjoy it, But realize you can’t have us both…
Me: I understand
Mr C: Do you?
Me: yes
Mr C: Great… Take care. I mean, what is it you want from me?
Me: I enjoy you as a person I like you, I liked
getting to know you im not asking you to give me anything
Mr C: My, your tone really has changed…
Me: so has yours, its a weird situation, its both of us
Mr C: Is it?Why…?
Me: yes
Mr C: Come on.. I know since Sunday you have been holding a
ton back…
Me: Ok so if you want to blame me, its all my
fault, will it make you feel better?
Mr C: There’s NO fault here.
Me: Because I spoke to him after sun
Mr C: you made a choice, no
Me:and he said a lot of things, of course it
felt different
MrC: fine,
hope it works for ya, I met you and fell into something I’ve NEVER
felt before… I found a world with these 3 wonderful
people where everything felt SO right. Whether spoending the day or spending the
night…We took a flight
Me:and it was wonderful
Mr C: And they decided to get off quicker than I
expected…Nothing GOLD can stay…
Me: I know it hurts and I cant change
that, but you asked for honesty and I told u
MrC:Victoria it’s over, Obviously, Just move on
Me: why are you telling me that? Im not asking for something, Im answering you
Mr C: don’t try to fix the china doll – now that
you dropped it and broke it… If this is the way things are gonna be, and
this is the choice you have made… I need time and space…
Me: that is fine, no prob
Mr C:Cause interacting will hurt way too much, Longing for that other part of you
Me:ok
Mr C: that will never be there, cause it’s reserved for B, just the way it goes
This was the chat with Mr C, there is a little bit more to it cause he kept coming back and saying more, there were actually pauses in this chat, he speak as if he was done and Id leave it alone and he start back again with “What do you want from me?”
Ill post rest later.