Part of Mr C Chat

Me: Hey you

Mr C:hi…

Me: Just never heard from ya again after thurs

nite noisy call. If you dont want to talk its cool just say

so ok?

Mr C: not sure what to say. rather uncomfortable at the moment…

me: ok

Mr C: What do you want me to do?

Me: nothing, just had 2 calls from ya thurs

nite and never heard back after calling

Mr C: I know. I called and said I was sorry about

the way I ended that session.Then U called me back a few times, but I was

in Noisey land… (Interjecting here, I called back once and said thank u for the message, then he called me later while at a concert and I said call me back when I can hear him better)??

Mr C: Look, you made a choice here… And, after

the GR-8 time we had sunday, it hurts.

Me:ok

Mr C: I’m looking for an opportunity, to start a relationship, not be the “Best Buddy”

Me: yes but I also told you what was up with

me, I was honest as you asked me to be, you told me I wouldnt loose you as a

friend

Mr C: Been through that SO many times it stinks

Me: ok so dont tell me its ok to be friends and

sound like you will be around if its not what you want

Mr C: Right, but being a friend is gonna be at a

different level, so we’ll chat and stuff.. Can’t go doing more than that…

Me: ok

Mr C: We’re both gonna feel awkward. I just feel like I keep going through the

same thing, and it’s weird, It’s like I’m losing out to other men who

offer something I cant,bigger wallet, bigger dick, bigger WHATEVER, havent got a friggin clue

Me: you often told me to relax, when Id start

to share with you things I was feeling, you would just tell me to be quiet,

or kiss me or say shh , and Id stop, make sure you arent pushing

things faster then a person is moving and thinking they are farther then they

really are is all

Mr C:??????? make sure you aren’t pushing thinings

faster???and thinking they are farther then they

really are????? don’t get those…

Me:You are hurt because you thought things

were more serious between us correct?

Mr C: I’m hurt cause you lied to me and kept

telling me things that made me think we were something more serious…. I

found somebody, something Wonderful… Which doesn’t come along very often

in this world.

Me:C?

Mr C: What?

Me:I told you how I felt about B, how I

thought I was in a different place then you were with your B, and you would tell me know you understood

where I was, you told me to follow my heart, you told me

your my friend and that I wouldnt loose you, so how did I lie? I told you honestly how i felt about all

this and thats why its where it is right now between us cause I was honest about it

MR C: Yeah, every time we talked, you told me how

much MORE he was done… You couldn’t take it anymore, It kept gettin progressively more intense.

The feelings that he had blown it

Me: Yes that is correct

Mr C: Then the two(referring to his ex and my B) of them get sweet talkie on us,

and you bail, right back into his arms, I lost you

Me: its not a competition

Mr C: It sucks. Look you made you choice… Enjoy it, But realize you can’t have us both…

Me: I understand

Mr C: Do you?

Me: yes

Mr C: Great… Take care. I mean, what is it you want from me?

Me: I enjoy you as a person I like you, I liked

getting to know you im not asking you to give me anything

Mr C: My, your tone really has changed…

Me: so has yours, its a weird situation, its both of us

Mr C: Is it?Why…?

Me: yes

Mr C: Come on.. I know since Sunday you have been holding a

ton back…

Me: Ok so if you want to blame me, its all my

fault, will it make you feel better?

Mr C: There’s NO fault here.

Me: Because I spoke to him after sun

Mr C: you made a choice, no

Me:and he said a lot of things, of course it

felt different

MrC: fine,

hope it works for ya, I met you and fell into something I’ve NEVER

felt before… I found a world with these 3 wonderful

people where everything felt SO right. Whether spoending the day or spending the

night…We took a flight

Me:and it was wonderful

Mr C: And they decided to get off quicker than I

expected…Nothing GOLD can stay…

Me: I know it hurts and I cant change

that, but you asked for honesty and I told u

MrC:Victoria it’s over, Obviously, Just move on

Me: why are you telling me that? Im not asking for something, Im answering you

Mr C: don’t try to fix the china doll – now that

you dropped it and broke it… If this is the way things are gonna be, and

this is the choice you have made… I need time and space…

Me: that is fine, no prob

Mr C:Cause interacting will hurt way too much, Longing for that other part of you

Me:ok

Mr C: that will never be there, cause it’s reserved for B, just the way it goes

This was the chat with Mr C, there is a little bit more to it cause he kept coming back and saying more, there were actually pauses in this chat, he speak as if he was done and Id leave it alone and he start back again with “What do you want from me?”

Ill post rest later.