Children Angry

Dear Diary,

My oldest child was acting up yesterday the later part of the day. He is angry inside. We had to run to the store to get a few things and he just kept wandering off and stopping in isles and not paying attn to me. I was getting very frustrated and already had the other in the cart. I kept having to pull him aside. So I pulled him aside again in an isle and told him to knock it off and pay attn to me. When I turned around my youngest said “Mommy! Hes making a fist at you!” and I turned around and he was smiling. I asked him if he did such a thing, and he said no looking at the ground. I made him make eye contact and I told him not to lie and asked him and he said YES.

I didnt say much other then, “We are leaving now” and I took out the special cereal my son really wanted to get and I splurged to buy. He didnt not deserve to have something special for holding a fist to his mother.

I told him once he got home to go to his room. Asked him why would he do such a thing to me? That that is threatening someone or implying you want to hurt them. My oldest went on the couch and put a pillow over his head and cried. I think he was more upset I put the cereal back since he looked angry all the way home. So I told him to get off the couch I didnt want to hear him and to go to his room.

We went to church an hour later. And all was well. Then I came to pick him up. He was playing a game and then once he saw me he grabbed his brother by the shirt angrily and yelled. I was in shock. He was ready to start a fight in church! So I pulled him aside and asked him what was going on. He said “I DONT WANT TO LEAVE YET!” and his face was red and flushed. Once he said that his brother jumped in and acted the same way. I pulled them both over beside the wall and told them their behavior was inappropriate and that it was time to go, and I dont ever want them to speak to me like that again. Getting them out was a chore, they didnt listen to me and both took off at one point. Once we got in the parking lot my youngest ran into the middle of the street and started dancing around. I yelled at him and got them both in the vehicle and told them they were both going straight to bed when we got home.

So I wasnt in a great mood either after all this. 🙁 I worry about them. I worry about anger since the way we used to live. I want to stop this, I dont want this passed on to the next generation. Im going to look into a group flyer I read at the womens group I go to, they offer a anger management course at the hospital for children.