So Whatcha Think?

Dear Diary, Well after I wrote I phoned B again. He answered, said he still was sleeping, he said “Are you okay?” I said no. I told him he made it sound like he was coming out. He said he planned to come out and laid down around 5 to take a nap and well,…

Dear Diary, Ive been feeling kinda blah today, and part of it hit me. Im not proud to admit this but its reality of things I feel. My phone is not ringing. I think I got so caught up in the rush, being pursued actively by 2 men, phone calls all throughout the day just…

Dear Diary, Im in a irritable mood right now. Im equating it to my period soon to arrive. Which it should. So? I am feeling a bit lonely tonight. Just having that feeling of wishing I had someone I was “with” and secure with and knew it was going to last and ready to go…

Dear Diary, Im having a meltdown moment and to be honest I dont exactly know why. Im awake and Im crying and my mind is all going in the downward crappy spiral. B just walked away from me and said hes fucked either way so he wasnt even going to try and just went to…

Dear Diary, My garage is almost totally packed! Its fun though, with all the stuff my mother has brought over, Im picking out stuff still that I want. She brought over an old dresser I fell in love with and will have to clean up. What Im going to do with all this furniture, who…

Dear Diary, Well I have learned something new, using the proper term for how Im feeling. Envy not Jealousy. I always used the term Jealousy, not realizing its rarely jealousy I feel. But more envy with people or situations. I notice I feel it with boyfriend. Yesterday he said when he got in that he…