Molestors Can Die all I care

Dear Diary,

Ahhh just ate my leftovers from last night, yummy garlicy bread and pesto alfredo sauce pasta,,, mmmmmmm

Now Im burping garlic.

So anyways, the show was great, I highly recommend it. Dr. Laura did a great job.

My big sister called and we talked over some stuff about our parents and our issues.

My girlfriend who I went out with last night, she is 34. She has been through her share of stuff, but I met her online and shes one of the few I met in my city and we have been friends ever since. Anyways shes on disability she had tumors and surgeries in her past and various health problems, shes also overweight, shes super short, like 4’9 or so but over 200 pds. She is now going to a womens gym and talking about her health issues and that she wants to get healthy, she is also going to school to get her GED. Shes almost done with the classes and will test by the end of the year. So shes ready to do things with her life, shes a pretty girl and charismatic and fun, I love her entire family.

Anyways we just discussed our Dads. Her Dad left when she was 3 and she still remembers her parents fighting and her Dad saying “Bye Mija” or whatever in spanish and patting her on the head. She said hes never been a father its all about him and all. We discussed the lack of fathers and all, she said her mom has been married 5 times! EEeks.

She said how one was an Ex Con she met at church but he was still a con, one who beat her, and various stories. Just so sad ya know? I said “Has your mom learned anything yet?” She said no.

She basically became the mom of the house. My girlfriend that is, she is the oldest.

Im so proud of her though that shes finally taking steps for herself, she said her goal is to see Spain and travel there. She is going to make it happen she said.

So the show last night just reinforced more for me on what I need to be doing with my life, moer time and attn with my kids and more giving to others, community, etc.

I was watching this episode the other night of Dateline. It was pretty sad but amazing at the same time. Basically this woman in Canada was being attacked, someone called the cops and they came and found this woman a prostitute in the bushes, she had been beated severly by this man and they caught the man. Well not only did they catch him, he had a video camera and he filmed himself beating the woman, so the confiscated all of it, took it to the station and found 7 other women beat and filmed on it. So they knew this guy did more. He was a working man, wife and two kids and they searched his home and found more tapes, just the disturbing part was there was a tape of him having sex and all with children, like girls age 7!

Well it was overseas they could make out in Japan or somewhere, but they said they couldnt just get him in court on just that alone, they needed to know where this took place and who the victims were.

So heres where Dateline came in, Dateline did an episode on children as sexual slaves in Japan and went undercover, met this 13 yr old pimp who took the men to a place basically that was full of little girls of all ages for men to pay to have sex with. It was sooo sad. These little 7 yr olds in bedrooms coloring with crayons on beds and telling men “$30 for me” and all or “$60 for two of us”

Well the officer in Canada who busted this guy called up another detective and told her to turn on her tv, they both watched and saw that the same building shown on Dateline was the same one on their video tape of the man having sex with kids, so they matched a window, a couch and posters on the wall. Well this national organization raided the place with the child prostitutes and had it filmed and taking the little girls, well 4 of the girls matched the girls on this mans sex tape. So whammo! They had a solid case so this man also got busted for some other international sex with minors along with beating these women in Canada. And they said this case never would have come about like this, he would have pleaded to a lesser charge and gotten away with the kids thing without proof of a place and the victims.

Im so glad he got busted, Im sorry but I have no problem with people like that dying you know? I think murderers and molestors shouldnt live, but thats my opinion. Its just ugly.

They went in later and filmed the place where all these little girls were kept, all the nasty rooms, beds, beds with blood stains and all sorts of horrors, just cant even imagine those poor kids. What happens to men that they want little kids? I mean I know women do this to but a lot more men, whats going wrong in the world to where little kids are so devalued?

And I know its a big thing overseas in some places, people selling kids, having sex with babies…

I just went on a total rant there I know but Im just so glad they busted that guy.

SO big sisters inmate friend called her the other day for the first time, they only got to speak for 5 min.

She said she told him awhile ago enough of the “US” letters and to talk about himself, told him hes been a bad boy thats why hes locked up and to get his act together, that hes a very educated man but hes made some dumb choices….

So we shall see what happens with all that, her last guy just hasnt written again ever since going to San Quentin and her letter was returned.

The one teenager she had raised with her ex husband is calling her a lot to vent and talk about her end of what happened. She said its hard for her to listen to her cause hes doing to this teen what he did to her as his wife, ignoring her, just not caring now that shes out and blaming the teen for everything.

Yep dang adults, its like these dumb mind head games on kids over fucked up adult issues. I guess the teen got so upset at him, he moved them away from my sister, the one the girls called mom, the girls were moved from their nice neighborhood, home and schools to crummy schools and cramped living quarters, I guess the teen went off on the Dad and said “Why did you do this to us kids? Why couldnt you have let us finish school, the schools here are horrible and the house is too small, and we are unhappy here” His reply “I dont care if your unhappy, the thing is Im happy now” and thats a damn selfish idiot man for ya…

I feel for C, the other daughter who my sister raised for 7 yrs as her own,, and is totally cut off from… shes only 12 or so, the teen is out with her Dad now and can call my sis and talk and visit,,, but C, shes stuck. 🙁 Its sad.

Okay this is all depressing and all… so much crap going on in the world ya know? As my mom says all these situations make my own sound so much easier but at the time when I was divorcing it was the hardest thing for me too, we all have our struggles, but I always took care of my kids,, I never stopped.

My ex instead is in damn selfish think of himself and a liar mode.

B said last night the kids were antagonizing some, (as usual) and he came and sat them both down, said “Look, knock it off, we can make this easy, you guys can get along or you can argue, if so you will go to your rooms and you wont come out, Its not gonna be like with your mom, if you come out there will be hell to pay” lol, he said the kids were fine after that. He said to me “Im mean huh?” And for once I appreciated it. I appreciated that firmness, the side of a man that is firm and no nonsense with them, boys need that you know, we women deal too much with sensitivity and feelings where boys need firm stands from a man also…. Thank you B 🙂

And to be honest I know they need that.

Well my period should be coming soon, woohoo, lol Im breaking out and in the “Mood” today, so Im all hmmm

Later