Up Tonight
Dear Diary,
Well its been rare these days to have me up at night alone and everyone in bed, Ive actually been crashing out with B each night, often before him.
He was out by 10pm. I was just reading Adored, haha, we watched Nanny 911 too! Actually B watches it with me and its become our routine each week, but hey! Wife Swap I thought came on at 10pm Wed nights! Where did it go tonight?????
B was beat and crashed out, his back was bothering him and he got the heating pad and that relaxed him (I have nicknamed it “The Sleepypad” cause it makes me go to sleep when I lay on it. So he calls it that now too.
I went to the gym after work, but only for 30 min, long enough to do cardio then bail, I dont want little one at after care too long.
So you know who came over and said Hello as I was on the treadmill. Its weird, but the past 2 weeks or so i dont find him as appealing physically? Its like something looks different? The clothes hes wearing, his facial hair, I dont know it all just looks EH.
He came over and pointed his finger low at me. Im all “What?” and he just had it hanging out, I didnt know what he was doing, he just wanted to grab my finger and kinda like a pinkie finger hold. It was kinda cute, and he walked off. I talked to him briefly yesterday in the parking lot as I left, he came out, I went around the parking lot and waived, Yes we are weird, we care for one another and I just dont know if it will go away. I said goodbye and we just squeezed hands out my Jeep window.
Its different, its like this bond is there, well of course it is! DUH! But its like its shifting as of late, which isnt a bad thing, we talk to one another, we still show signs of affection but its tame now.
And I dont ache for his kisses now.
I just miss his attention.
These are all good things right? 🙂
B and I are okay, nothing going on really, havent mentioned what happened since it occurred. I gave him his half of the bills tonight, It was just enough so he wrote out the mortgage payment since it was about what his half was. So Im glad, I think Ill actually have a firm grip on the bills and be a little ahead if nothing comes up by the end of the month.
But Ouch the Private School tuition! It would have spared me about $200.
On a good note I should have enough to pay off one credit card! YAY! I dont owe huge amounts, but with the Jeep work and the trip in Nov to the wineries, I have to pay that stuff back, So one card is a little over $400 and not sure on the other one.
So! Onto my new diet and skincare stuff and all of that! I got my package with my supplements Monday so I just started taking those.
Mind you I started this and then got a facial that same week, but I have to say Im TOTALLY impressed already! And hope this keeps up!
Im not following the diet to a T but am implementing a lot of it. More water, vitamins, salmon, green vegetables, olive oil, pomegranite juice, oatmeal with flaxseed in it, eggs…
And I pulled back on the amount of dairy I drink this last week although I have had more this week.
BUT, along with that, I bought a new cleanser and face cream, with DMAE, Lipolic Acid and some other things in it. It is great!
AND! For anyone with acne or redness on the face or anywhere, try Vitamin A capsules! Dammit they do work! Its what the dr who wrote the book said was the first thing that ever worked for his severe acne, and Im seeing it now too!
It has to be Vitamin A with fish liver oil. It looks like Vit E capsules, and you just poke a hole in it and apply it to the skin, it also works on skin rashes, flaking, etc…. but it basically does something to inflammations, and I kid you not it takes the redness out of the acne and heals it up. Its awesome! Now its my spot treatment and Im amazed how well its working!
My face just looks better, my complexion, so check it out “The Perricone Prescription” is the book, I got it at Costco for $9.99. And I didnt buy the dudes products for facial cleanser etc(cough they are pricey) I just went to my local healthfood store and found what had similar ingredients.
Oh! And Dark Chocolate is good for you, heavy content of Cocoa though! The higher the content the better, which I love and B does so we are always trying new Dark Chocolate bars. Highest cocoa we have found is 72% so far.
By the way, not sure if I wrote about this past weekend and shopping at the Vons in the nicer part of town where I go jogging at the park when its warmer, well the store is NICE, we shopped there, and decided we will go more often! Its a NICE high end store and has lots of different products as its in the wealthy affluent side of town, but they have a Starbucks inside and a little cup holder built into the cart! (sorry none of our other grocery stores look anything like this) half the stores around here are full of ghetto looking trash and some of the stores just look BLEH, well all of them near my house. So we have agreed when we head to Trader Joes we will swing by this store for the other stuff we need more often. They had so many items in the vegetables and fruits Id never seen before! LOL I was all LOOK AT THIS! What is this????
Heck need to take my kids to see just for fun!
I hit Costco for the Salmon because its the best buy and I am eating a lot of it and B and I both like it. And I like buying their Rotisseri Chicken, just take it home and eat it! And I stripped the rest off tonight and mixed it in with Trader Joes Curry Rice(another one of our faves)
So one of my earliest childhood friends J is coming to visit, she emailed me today to ask about Sunday or Monday eve. I told her Sunday, but have to hear back. Shes flying out from New York and will have her new boyfriend with her.
I have known her since I was around Kindergarten or so. We always got along so well, her parents divorced, her dad stayed on my block, her mom in town, and our parents would take us for play days now and then and she and I always loved playing together, she had the most awesome imagination and gentle spirit so we got along so well.
Later her dad remarried, and along came A, my obsessive compulsive gal pal in Florida I write about, she and J then became step sisters. So thats how A came into my life. I didnt like A, J didnt like A, but she always tagged along, we have sleep overs often at my house, and A was such a brat and would hit J and all. One New Years A got diarhea and cramps bad and went home, we were so happy that night and cheering!
Anyways, J later moved to Oregon and later to New York as an adult.
We have written letters, brief phone calls, her last I cant even really remember! I think I was still living at home so just out of highschool!
EEKS!
She teaches human sexuality, works in gay and lesbian communities, shes been a dancer, nude modeling, she went through a period and told me she was a lesbian years back when I was dating my ex husband and I laughed and told her “Since When???” And she told me she was born that way. Well after that relationship ended shes only been with men. She just broke up with a guy she was with for 3 yrs and said it wasnt going anywhere and that deep down inside she is a traditional kinda gal and wants marriage and all. So now she has a new guy, OH! And she plays drums in a band too! Shes a colorful and interesting person with the sweetest heart. So warm.
It will be so strange to see her in person, I almost wish it were just her and I, but our guys will be there too. I just want to hug her!
Well thats it for now…