Can my Hair become Famous?
Dear Diary,
Talked to Mr C yesterday after work, he had said at one point “Am I going to see you again?” 🙁 I had never said No you wont, but he knows things went well with B and I. But Im not ready to say Im all Bs either, but Im also feeling I dont like the physical aspect with Mr C at this point. I had a good talk with my girlfriend about Mr C and the physical aspect. She did note he was pushy after I shared with her. Hes not pushy in a exactly direct way, but hes more sneaky about it, and well she told me to just really have an honest straightforward talk with him. Mr C has a knack for girl”friends” galore, but he even said he is looking for one that he doesnt send home all happy to sleep with their boyfriend or whomever, he wants to be that ONE. And well I can start to see how it happens. Its like all the parts of Mr outside of that are great! But theres just something different about him, and he had said to me one day on the phone about a cousin who molested him when he was younger, a female, and how she would do things to him and tell him what to do and he thinks its impacted him sexually as an adult. I dont know what it is, but just something about that part of him doesnt flow right. But everything else I adore, and hes sweet as can be.
So I love hanging out with him, flirting, being affectionate, having a good time, but I will have to draw the line that it cant go beyond that if Im feeling good towards B, I just dont owe anybody parts of my body or that aspect if Im not comfortable or ready. And if a person cant handle that, well then so be it, move on Victoria.
Talked to B last night, he worked on his Jeep some more yesterday but was in the sun too long and got a sunburn and didnt feel well last night. So he went to bed early. Hes working on his Jeep again today, I cant wait until he gets it up and running and we get to take a drive!!! WOOHOOO! The Jeep is beautiful and raised up high.
I was online after B went to bed and was talking to my Music Producer friend. We got into a really good chat last night and spoke on the phone. I met this guy online in a chat room shortly after my separation and we talked on the phone for a hour or so while he was at a party. And we have just remained friends ever since. He was in a 5 yr relationship with a child that just ended and I was just separating from my Ex. We have both since been involved in a new relationship and just have talked along the way. We have never met.
We have talked on the phone about 4 times total so its mainly just online.
So last night we had a good talk, he was telling me about his past how he was a drug addict and about recovery. Anyways his girlfriend has just pulled back on him and wont talk to him but doesnt want to break up just wants “Space” and hes going nuts not talking to her or seeing her.
He is a sweetie, he has many issues to still deal with but he is sweet. Its just funny we havent ever met yet. He has his own studio, and hes working at a night club at night in Hollywood. He actually invited me once but I couldnt make it to the club. I really should go though! I just want to invite him out for coffee or something sometime and just “hangout” not be so concerned with trying to find a guy, but just meeting new men, making new friends.
Its kinda cute cause when he has his daughter he often asks me parenting pointers for things shes doing, shes just 3 right now.
Mr C called me last night again while I was asleep, Ive been going to bed earlier, Im just exhausted lately since Im feeling run down.
I went to the mall last night! I had about 45 min with no kids so I went girly shopping and got a cute skirt and shirt. But then I started thinking about how I need places to go to wear them, NIGHT LIFE!
I swear lately my hair has been getting me comments. Its the same hair Ive had but all the sudden as of lately its a conversation piece. Literally this is how often Its happened just this week.
Sunday-
Changing in public bathroom at Mr Cs pool area and woman changing asks me if my hair is natural and how she loves the curls and how curly hair is in.
Later in the spa another woman starts saying “You know you are the only person I have ever met with hair curly like mine” and we start into this curly hair convo.
Monday- I walk into group and one of the women says she loves my hair, then the therapist chimes in and they ask me if mines naturally curly like that.
Tues-
Im at pet store with B and kids paying at the register and the girl clerk asks me if my hair is permed or natural and telling me how envious she is.
Wed-
Burger King while eating with my oldest an old man walks up to the table and tells me he likes my hairstyle and that its very cute.
2 hrs later at gym Im stopped in the bathroom by 2 women asking me about my hair and if its natural or a perm.
And its probably been within the last few mos this has been happening to me. I find it fascinating, but geesh I need to find a way to market this hair of mine haha if its that much a conversation piece!