Bounty Hunter

Dear Diary,

Morning.

Ahh I so wanted to call in today.

Im sure my period should be coming, especially with how I was feeling last night.

I have my little pre period symptoms 1. Break Out 2. Emotional/Weepy 3. Horny 4. Headache.

Those are usually my indicators its coming, and Ive got 1 and 2 in place, 3 approaching, and the headache happens half the time.

I keep telling myself to see a dermatologist, never have been to one, but this breaking out stuff is getting old I tell you.

And whats with growing those dark little facial hairs along your chin? Id love to go and get that lazer hair removal stuff done, with all the modern science and stuff out there, youd think by now theyd have invented a way to get rid of unwanted hair(and not half to pay an arm and a leg for it) And Im talking get rid of it for GOOD. How much time and money do we women spend shaving and on razors, gels, waxing, you name it!

Anyways,

I went to the gym afterwork, did about 20 min of cardio, Im so not in a gym mood these days. Funny how that happened since B has moved in, Id rather be home, exercise is less priority, I think I did it more back then because it helped shift my mind off him not being there, like going to the park in the eves.

And the other part was seeing you know who, now I just am there and see him and dont talk, so its a little awkward, sometimes I just dont want to go into the weight area cause I dont want to see him.

Well I was going to do a few leg machines and go early, I havent done any weights for 2 weeks. I went to my Jeep to put some of my things away and Gym Buddy pulled up, so I walked in with him and the guys were doing legs. So I decided to stay, I did Squats with them on the Smith Machine, Okay, so Im sooooooooooooreeeeeee today, I was walking funny out of their yesterday, Its a good exercise, but ouch Im so out of shape doing it so it hit me.

I didnt stay long, headed to the post office 5 min before closing YAY! And got my stuff mailed. I also had to complain, they have a new Self Checkout machine, I used it, Sept 27 to mail a package and got Tracking/Delivery Confirmation, the number is on the receipt, well the person hasnt gotten their package yet, so I went to go track it and it shows no frickin error of it!!!!!!!!

I call their number, run around the phone system and get same answer, get a postal person who says “Try again later” Ummm shouldnt it be in there by now????

So Im praying to God the package arrives to the person and now I have no seller protection if the tracking number shows ZILCH. OH and if you read the receipt the self checkout gives you it says to have it stamped by a postal worker or something??????? To further validate it? So whats the point? THey urge you to avoid the line and use it, but now I have to use it, and get in line to get it stamped? So Im ticked, have to speak to a different person in there now for assistance.

I go and get my youngest, Im still beat, the workout did me in, i just want to sit down, hes at the table with homework, we dont have much alone time as I picked him up later, but he got both sides of his paper done and started his cursive.

We go get his brother, head home, and the stupid bickering, my little one policing every dang thing his older brother does, Ive had this happen in the reverse and was going to see the counselor over it, but it seems to go in patterns, the kids do this stuff then it goes away, then it surfaces later. But its freaking driving me nuts, Little one is telling oldest what to do, what he can or cant eat, how much, telling him not to run to the front door while hes outside? I mean just every dang thing he does. I look at him and go “STOPPIT, are you the mom?” And hes just been REALLLY REALLLLLLLLY bad lately, And then to make it even worse, my 10 yr old gets upset, comes in “Mom! He told me I cant do this or that” And I look at him with my usual speech of “And why are you listening to him? Is he the boss?” he replies “NOOOOOOO”

Sigh, how long does it take? The arguing went on again this AM, little one last night also told oldest he could not watch tv and he had homework to do??????? Im all “Since when do you get to tell him this? He doesnt have any homework”

UUUUUGGGGGGGGGGH

Well I get back from getting oldest, B was home already. So I go into the kitchen, ask what sounds good for dinner to which he just shrugs at everything and stands there. It was pissing me off, I said “Well get outta here then, your no help” and my youngest laughed at the table doing his homework saying “Yeahhh get outtaaa here”

B went to the office, I was grumpy, hungry and tired. I decided Im making canned soup, no effort, put it in a pan and heat it, my kinda dinner! And set a packet of crackers out.

I was grumpy and irritable, and even though I was, I wasnt in the mood to sit at the table, I just wanted to be alone in quiet, I walked into the office and brought B his bowl to which he smiled and said “Your bringing me soup??? Aweeee thank you baby” and was all nice. I went and got mine and sat in the office, in some adult quiet. B went on about work after he got done.

I went to the bedroom, I was tired, physically, but not sleepwise. It was dark, no lights, felt good, B came walking ina nd laid down, asked if I was okay, I said I was just worn out, he said I looked like I needed a hug, he laid down with me and it was nice, Oldest i s reading a Star Wars book so he keeps popping in relaying misc facts from the book! LOL annoying but cute.

Well B got up, came back with some yogurt, Im flipping through channels, he tells me to stop on CSI, I didnt want to, it was MY Tv time which I dont watch much these days and I was in there first, hes usually watching tv, so I clicked it, he kept seeing stuff he liked and making comments, then he said “Thats it your tv changing and selecting sucks” At that point I was so tired of everything and just wanted my own space to flip channels as I please, so I just dropped the remote next to B and left the room. Yes I was pissed.

I went and loaded the dishwasher and started dishes LOUDLY and angrily.

When I was done I was walking back in the room and just going to tell B straight out to scoot, it was MY tv time that I rarely watch it and I was in their first. Well I walk in and he smiles and says “Hi Huney, are you okay? What are you doing?” I said “Dishes” And he asked me to come over and sit next to him. He said “You seemed mad” haha. LOL NOOO??? DID I?

I said I was bugged by the tv remark, hes all “Babe, I was just giving you a hard time, poking fun at your tv selections, I wasnt all mad and serious” I said I was just tired and sensitive, so we just laid there. I said ” I need cookies” and hes all “Yeah, that does sound good, what kind?” Im all “Mcdonalds drive through choco chip cookies, 3 for a $1 and some milk. LOL Hes all “I dont have cash” Im all I DO. Hes all Ooooooo, so you want to go? Im all “NOOOOOOOOOOO” and we get into this silly wrestling debate over whos going and I just kept nibbling at his neck saying “Nooo you want to go out and do it cause you love me and you want to get away from here so when you come back Im in a happier mood” Hes all “Nooo you want to go so you can have alone time and be away from the kids” Im all NOOOOOOO

I was so in a mood not to drive, or even leave the house, I just wanted to stay put, so he finally ended up going. 🙂 YAY!

Oh and the whole remote thing made me cry, thats was when I went “Oh great this is so PMS behavior”

He handles it all great. I think with him, even though I get upset or bugged by things, the fact that he doesnt explode and all that, really helps, things dont get all stupid and out of hand. So theres not too much drama when things are difused, and I make sure to let things go if need be, choosing your battles, not making issues out of things that are not really big issues.

So,,, I got my DA papers out last night, my files and storage tubs of papers, I have way too much crap. I need a shredder for old stuff.

So I didnt even get done, I got too tired, and to start that stuff I need a large space(like my living room floor!) and to leave it out for days which is hard with kids. So I semi left stuff out on the floor. I also tossed so many papers I had, just crap and things I dont need anymore, simplifying life right? I threw a way sheets I printed on parenting and handouts and children and divorce, and Im all Blehhh, Its just sitting here, if I want info again I can look it up on the net or in a book, dont need all these print outs of stuff.

So just lots of various things went into the trash, I threw magazines away! Im so weird, Im Mrs Recycle and not throw stuff away and am saving my mags to take to the gym to put in the magazine basket for people to read. But then I have to make sure to cross my name off, take them in, put them there, and so last night I chucked some good mags into the trash can, said Screw it! Just wanted them out of my sight.

I finally crawled into bed and B and I watched about 4 episodes of Dog the Bounty hunter. I like that show, its amusing, but also the fact that he shares about his faith in God and shows love and prays with people they catch, I think is awesome.

And his oldest son who works for him, I think hes cute, haha. Ahhh hes so robbing the cradle age for me I bet, but hes a cutie pie.

Its always interesting to see how other people live, couples are in the marriage, how they interact. How parents are with their children, and I like that part of the show as it follows all of that too, went along for Moms day, him taking the kids to the mall and hating malls, and then helping his child pick out a Precious Moments figure for Mommy. and just stuff like that. LOL But it was totally a crack up when Dog said “Im taking my wife out, I hate this stuff, but she likes it” So where does he take her? To this boxing type fighting match where guys are bloody and crap! LOL B is all “Huney, is that what you want for Moms day” and Dog said he hates that stuff and he ends up walking out and said “I do this for a living, I dont want to see it” It was like role reversal, the woman liked the violent fights, the husband wanted out of there and walked out bugged by it. Plus the guy is a vacuuming freak, I get a kick out of that, hes always vacuuming and liking how clean carpets look and a sense of accomplishment. haha

Ok thats it for the moment