Open & Closing Doors
Well my morning ritual a lot of the week is getting woke up when B leaves for work around 5am.
My mind starts spinning and going over things and I cant fall back to sleep even though I dont have to be up till 7am myself.
Its cold and I dont want to get out of bed. So I stay put and turn on the tv, its full of informercials or news, and just waking up watching depressing news doesnt do it for me.
So Ive begun watching Joyce Meyers each morning. Her messages are right on with whats up in my life. Dealing with Worry, Fear, Reasoning, Control, you name it!
This AM her message hit home more then ever. She was talking about how we pray to God, to help us, to bring us closer to Him, for change in our lives, etc.
And then some change occurs in our lives and we FREAK OUT, we get upset, we get depressed, we try to figure it out, we want to know why this is happening and why is God doing this.
And she said “Stop trying to figure everything out!”
I mean God has a plan right? And we dont always know what it is, nor are we to know what it is.
She asked people to pray “God open doors nobody else can open and close doors nobody else can close”
She mentioned how people loose a job, a friend moves away, etc. and we cry about when maybe its what God wanted for us? Maybe we werent in a good place or in a good relationship.
So that was really right on for me today. So many things right now are happening in my life I do not understand and plague my mind because I want to FIGURE IT OUT, I want to get it UNDER CONTROL and taken care of.
And then Im reminded of my son asking me to play that song “God is in Control” and its like ummm oh yeah, he is huh?
And we dont always know what hes doing nor are we to know at the time,,, wow, thats tough, cause we want to know… ya know?
But I just fill myself full of anger and worry, and I dont like living this way, I said that prayer this AM, to open doors no man can open in my life and close the doors no man can close in my life, and I have to admit I was scared to pray that…. Im like “Oh Lord what are you going to bring me…”
As I saw Tammy Faye say on TV, when she was a child she used to pray “God dont let my life be boring” ………. Yipes!
Anyways if you have time check out this message, its super good and the lady is pretty humorous too in her message, you can watch it online.. the messages change every day so make sure to visit it today to catch this awesome one!
http://www.joycemeyer.org/projects/jmm_broadcast/todays-broadcast.php?date=122005&type=T&view=descr