Crappy PMS

Dear Diary,

Wooo boy do I feel like crapola, PMS feelings, Im physically tired, my eyes are heavy, I feel gassy, bloated, you name it, I just wanted to get home and do nothing, I dont want to make dinner. B is fending for himself.

Im supposed to go to Costco, I dont think I can handle it.

I so feel like CRAP!

So I rush to get youngest ASAP, he only had to stay in after care 30 min, and in my head Im all thinking he will want to go home and will be all awkward at the school. NO! He yells “MOM! Why did you pick me up so early!”

LOL

Ahhh I guess hes fine yeah?

I told him that I had to pay for after care.

So some days he can stay a little longer, some days he wont.

We got home and I looked over his homework, he has cursive writing, which he was just starting in 3rd grade. Well the kids at this school h ave it down in second, so hes going to have to get caught up there! Just goes to show you the difference you know? Also his spelling words, they are bigger ones and he has more, he just had to write all 15 in a sentence, he wasnt doing that this year. Ugh his writing is horrible, last year his teacher got on him and made him repeat homework when it was too sloppy.

I supervised somewhat, but I want them to see where he is and all.

They had Chapel today, he sang me a song he learned when he got home, the ” I am a C, Im am a CH, you know the Im a Christian song. I sang it and hes all HOW DID YOU KNOW THAT MOM!? lol

They also teach the children Spanish there also, so he had that today also.

He seemed just fine, but I got a list of materials to buy, I bought some with him after school but still dont have it all, damn Im so broke. I had to pay about $300 to the school of my own plus B’s $144 for half of tuition, but I had registration and books to pay also. Then we went to Target and I got him a few shirts, WHEW! Thank God they were on clearance, I bought him 3 and they were like under $4 each plus the school supplies were on clearance, so there is one benefit to buying this stuff a little late!

I have to admit Im a little overwhelmed. So many changes, my son is going to have to get caught up with the school which will require me spending more time doing homework with him, plus no free after school care where they help them do homework so I will no longer have that assistance with him. And I admit the selfish part of me liked my routine. The kids in the after school grant program, with the snacks, homework assitance, crafts and rec games. Now I have to pay per hour for little one and theres no homework help so I will be doing a load with him in the eves, that will be a big adjustment, but like I said, these are not bad adjustments, just new, and we all have to work together as a family which is scary, funny how all those things have become SCARY? Family time, homework time, shared things, I was so portioned off before.

Well thats it for now