Touched by An Angel

Dear Diary,

Morning.

Well I did some house cleaning last night! YAY!

I skipped the gym while the kids were at VBS. I came home and thoroughly vacuumed/cleaned up the living room, Im talking moved furniture, vacuumed the couches, cobwebs in corners.

I then mopped my kitchen floor too! YAY!

I was on a roll.

Im praying I sell off some of this furniture, I put up a Auction Ad but for items for pickup only, so have no idea if it will sell or not. Will find out right?

I was going to aim for a garage sale this weekend, but Im not really ready for one I dont think, who knows, maybe my mind will change in a day?

I want to clear out some of my garage first, cause I hardly have room to get around in it, and then organize things by table for a garage sale, all nice and neat and priced and displayed well and all.

But Im just happy I got done what I did last night.

B has been sick, he stayed home from work yesterday also. So I talked to him briefly in the eve.

I was reading something on another message board this AM and it was about the Laci/Conner law that was passed. George Bush had signed it and someone I know is kinda miffed over it and saying its a political stunt, blah blah blah and a way to undermine Roe Vs. Wade.

It upset me reading that. As I have followed the Laci Peteron case since Day 1. Ive read, watched stories, her signs were posted along our Hwy when she was missing as I live a few hours from where she lived.

Our local talk radio followed the case since the beginning also, and still do daily as they have a reporter whos in the court room each day at the trial.

So I didnt see this law as anything Presidential or Political, SORRY IM MIFFED.

It was about a family seeking justice, Laci’s mother seeking to the murderer accountable for two murders and not one. And I just hate when political debates arise over such stuff. Just look at it for what it is folks.

Anyways, that really just riled me up this AM. This guy just got married and he and I email often and talk, he made a comment once that if he didnt meet his wife (who is pregnant with his child right now) That I was a cutie pie, yada yada yada,, I said “Wed never work out, we are on oposite ends of the political spectrum, wed argue everything” He laughed and didnt think that was a big deal, but I can really see how it can be difficult having a partner you dont share same ideas with on certain things.

I was laying on the couch last night and they added some new channels to our cable and I stopped on the Hallmark Channel and the kids and I watched Touched By An Angel. Its been awhile since I saw that show. But this one had more Angels, Valerie Bertanelli was one. And then Kirk Cameron was on it as an actor. It was so weird as I havent watched him in so long. I know hes a Christian, and at the end of Growing Pains they had a lot of trouble on the set with him refusing to do certain scenes or imply things any longer due to his conversion to Christ.

Anyways, the show was about a Father who beat his children, their Mom had died, and the son bought a gun on the internet and was going to kill his father, but didnt, and got hit by a car, etc etc…

It was really cool though, yeah some people think that type of show is hokey, but me and the kids sat there watching it together, it brought up so many conversations. About Abuse, Guns, Angels, God, Suicide…. and it was just so nice to sit with the kids and I was really happy with the message of the show.

Just reminded me of how I want my kids to be, how I want them to grow up, what kind of a home I want them to be raised in.

They asked me after we toured the model homes and drove by the church we were last going too, “Mom, are we ever going to go to church again?”

And I said ” I dont know honey” as I feel so conflicted about church, I want to yet I dont.

So they are enjoying the Vacation Bible School. So they are in fact back in a church, they are enjoying it too. I was watching them sing the other day and doing all the hand motions and my 10 yr old just humming along songs yesterday he had learned.

I was emailing with my girlfriend yesterday and she wrote me this in regards to my kids and their father and my situation….

“I know your situation is different, and it’s a lot harder for you. I can’t believe your ex doesn’t help you out. That is not fair to you, and especially not fair to the boys. I know you worry about it, but believe me, they won’t turn out like that. You are a great role model for them, even if their dad isn’t. Worse case scenario, they both marry strong women like you. Most guys who are raised by their mother’s without much support from their dad’s try their best NOT to be like their dads. They see how hard you work, I don’t think that they will put another woman through that. So don’t worry about that, time will tell all. When they get older, they will see their dad in a different light, and resent him for making you work so hard. I know enough guys who were raised by their mom’s without father’s. Boys usually fare better than girls in that situation. “

That was encouraging to hear you know? Well thats it for now….