Questions & Thoughts

Dear Diary,

I started to answer these yesterday then was sidetracked, so here goes…

Adored’s Questions…

1) how would you feel being stranded on a desert island for 1 week. no phone, no computer, no tv, no contact with anyone on the outside (but plenty of food and water)?

How would I feel? Ha, I dont think I would really know to be honest, but if you know its only going to be a week and you have food and water then at least you wont be all scared n stuff. But still, being alone? Outdoors? Wild Animals? Bugs?

I think it could be good in the sense of a lot of alone time to think, reflect and talk to God. But I can see the other part of me that would probably whine and cry about it too.

2) what are your greatest strengths?

My Money Sense, My Energy/Stamina, My Patience, My Gentleness/Empathy

3) where do you see yourself 3 years from now?

Oh boy, 3 yrs, Wow, Ill be 34, and my kids will be 11 and 13! EEKS LOL. And my oldest will be just about ready for High school!

I dont know, as far as a job is concerned where I will be…

But I do envision having moved to a different home by then and being in a better school district and neighborhood for the kids. Thats about the only thing that I do look ahead and see, Im more trying to find myself career wise, and also soul searching relationship wise so those are both up in the air to me 3 yrs down the road.

My cell phone rang twice late last night, I didnt answer, B called too but then he called my cell and it shows his number, my sister has a blocked home #. I wasnt in the mood to talk to her then and I was so tired. I didnt have the emotional energy to deal with her.

B is coming up tonight again. He has been very thoughtful, he emailed me last night while at his friends then chatted with me from there as he was hanging out there.

Seems whatever I say I need in the relationship, he listens and makes adjustments.

He has actually been quite thoughtful to be honest. Well when it comes to my requests. Its just the way he acts around the kids I feel eh about,, Sunday he was sorta irritable and talking in his adult way to them and made some remark when my oldest was being a brat ( and yes he was, he was backtalking and being honary to me) B said “You know my mom smacked me in the face when I did that, I never did it again”

Sorry, we dont operate that way around here.

Its stuff like that that puts me off with him….

I noticed how the kids came and said Goodnight to me and not to B at all Sunday.

Which is okay, Im not upset at them over it, it just shows me though how they dont have much care for him around to even do so. I mean they respond well to attention and love, Not seriousness and lectures.

Ive been wanting to read some books, perhaps this weekend Ill make a trip to Barnes and Noble since the kids will be gone, and I have to stay in town friday night and half of sat for the high speed cable installation.

Ive contemplated seeing “Passion of Christ” friday, not sure if B will come out, but then Id rather not go alone. And thats where Gym Guy pops in my head dammit. I know hed go. And then I remind myself of asking other friends, theres my girlfriend K who I just called and spoke with yesterday, and also D is free, we have our weekends coordinated now when our kids are gone…. I should make some calls later to both gals and see if either want to go see the movie….