Teacher Sighhhhh

Dear Diary,

I just got home from class. And Im just dying.

I have nobody to really talk to either. So here I am in my journal.

God, I have a crush on my teacher. Tonight I was dying.

I was left alone with him after class, everyone bailed, normally their are a few who stay and talk but everyone left. And I was left ALONE in the room and hallway with him, as he marveled about the movie and the film, thanking me, talking to me briefly, etc etc. I was so happy to just be WITH him, but just being cool, but grasping at things to say cause I was nervous as all hell.

I feel so silly.

But Oh my God. At one point during changing film reels of the film he was talking about the Love scene and a few girls said it was bleh, a guy speaks up and said “I found it arousing” And the teacher said how Erotic it was. It was one of those films that doesnt really show anything but leaves a lot to the imagination to fill in. Slow, tension building, drawn out. Then my teachers comments. His passion for film, just the way he talks. Ughhhh. And he was dressed in this silk type yellow shirt tonight, oh he looked nice.

I think I forgot to write that he said a few weeks ago, he brought a gift for me and my boss as a thank you, and said “You know nobody else has those” and one guy student friend of his was all begging and whining. I just wanted to linger in the hall with him and talk, but I get so damn nervous, and hes said he has a girlfriend. And well I have a boyfriend. But I so badly just want to sit and talk to him. I dont know what to do! LOL

I drove home and just wanted to scream, I wanted to call someone up. But who? So I just smiled all the way home and rushed to my computer to write this. I literally have a crush, and have not really felt one like this since B and I first got together. Those wonderful crush rush, high feelings.

And my God hes gotta run into female students having hots for him all the time so I just feel like Im a goofball. So I got home tonight and checked my email. He wrote a letter tonight just after I left! It says…

dear Victoria…..

i just wanted to email you and let you know again how

grateful i am that you have been so willing to bring

these films….it has made this the BEST

film class ever ….really…..!!

that film we watched tonite was just amazing !!

i dont often get students who give a damn like you do

about my class…..thanks so much!!!

i would also like to email your boss if possible to

thank him…….??

will have a check fo you next class…..as i said i

can only afford to buy them one at a time….

and i will certainly cherish this print.

let me know if there is anything i can do to help you

guys.

peace

Awwweee aint he sweet. But its true. Most of the students dont give a damn, its sad really. Because you see how passionate he is and he wants to share it and many people are just so bleh about it.

Okay I just had to vent out this feeling, ahhh ok Im off