Sexy Teacher Dude

Dear Diary,

Helloooo.

Well first off. I have a little thing for one of my friends here/ fellow readers. You know who you are. 🙂

You said “He doesnt COMPLETE me”

Something in all of my Domestic Violence counseling and all my time learning about relationships, we have devoted much talk and time to Hollywoods version of Love. How we buy into it. And of course most of us recall that lines “You Complete me” in Jerry Macquire.

Well our therapist would say “Nobody completes you! You have to be the one who is complete, a relationship COMPLIMENTS you, its the icing on the cake, its the strawberry on top, but you are still fabulous and delicious without it, it just makes it even better”

So thats been logged into my head, and I just thought Id pass that along to you. 🙂

So lets see, went to gym yesterday, had a nice social time, its kinda nice these days going. Its just funny because everyone I hang out with are in law enforcement, and work for the prison, etc. Its a big bulk of the people who work out at the same time as I do that all work together.

I then had class last night, got to talk to the teacher about my boss donating some film to watch for classes. Teacher was thrilled. I had emailed him twice the past few weeks. Last week with a list of film titles but never heard back. So he isnt sure whats going on with his email and why isnt getting mine. So this other guy student made a comment that “Maybe the other half of you?” And I know what he meant, his girlfriend, maybe shes getting the mail and deleting it? Who knows? Hes a good looking guy, girls swoon over him at the school and Ive overheard stories from classmates, one girl knows a formal girlfriend of his, and she also talked about how some girls just hang around him and wont go away.

So it will be fun, Im bringing in some items for class next week. And then hes gonna come out, meet my boss and all, and we are going to work on having a class night here at my work. Woohoo how fun eh? 🙂

So I got home after class, and got on the computer to find Music Dude very chatty with me, then he told me was stoned, then he began to tell me how he wanted to hang out with me but I live to far from him, and how Im cool and a hottie and all this junk. Im like ?? “Oh cmon you wont even hang out with me as a friend, you just want to sleep with me, as long as Im taken we cant hang out” Hes all “NOO, thats not true” Im like “UH HUH, I want to hear you tell me this when your not high” and hes all “Oh babes, you know I think your great” and all this talk. He was pissing me off a bit, because well, you all know. I write about him all the time. I dont hate him or anything, I just think hes not very honest with himself about his feelings. Denies things.

So I was lonesome for B last night. Hadnt heard from him all day which is rare, I get a daily email from work from him, but nothing, I wrote him and nothing. So I thought he didnt go to work or something. He called me after 10pm finally last night. Just said he was busy with work, and then came home, went and worked on his computer and finished up packing ( Hes moving today, took the day off)

So he wont have a phone for a few days. This weekend is gonna suck in some ways, sigh. I guess Im just leaving things up to him, Im trying so hard to just pull back and not be so available, but I dont feel Im doing so well. So this weekend will be a BIG test for me. Since Im free, and B just moved, no phone, has a concert sat night. And I just wonder if hes even gonna ask me to come and stay at the new place at all?

I have therapy today after work, who knows what I will cover. Im thinking my problem with having friends, outside of B, how I want to be and do things with B all the time and basically wait for him. And how I can stop doing that, etc.