Touching Talk with Special Guy

Dear Diary,

:::Sniffling::: Wattery eyes::::::

Well Im teary eyed but its not a bad kinda cry. I just had a really sweet moment with Spy Guy Pal.

He just Messaged me….

Him: Hey you – I was hoping you were on here. I actually tried to call you today

Me: oh yeah?

Him: but – I figured you were on here – and yep – you are

Me: k oh you just called u mean ?

Him: It was a few hrs ago

Me: whats up hun?

Him: I am leaving

Me: ah when ya going? now?

Him:Yep – pretty soon. I’m packing up my house

Me: where ya off too this time?

Him: I’m putting it into storage

Me: ooooo no more place?

HIM: Mid East (once again)I’ll get something when I get back

Me: gotcha

Him: … I’m gonna be gone a while

Me: Well then let me give ya a proper Internet bye bye

Him: My guess is about 1 yr or so

Me: :::Grabs your cyber self::::

Him: lol

Me: cmhere sexy mysterious man

Him: :::big hug and kiss for you:::

Me: You tooooooo.You know I love ya? and will be thinking of you

Him: Yes I do. You know I love you too, right?

Me: Yes : )

Him: 🙂

Me: I can still mail u stuff?same addy or no?

Him: Yep – same one. Should get to me sooner or later.

I might get some kind of e-mail…. but I don’t know

Me: Ok just let me know

Him: Sorry I didn’t get a chance to say hi

Me: Its ok just keep in touch when ya can ok

Him: I will You know me, always shwing up when ya least expect it

Me: well hopefully Ill be officially divorced and own my house and all th at next time we talk : )

Him: I hope so too I know that you’ll be just fine – youre a tough lady.Ya know – I’ll make a confession

Me: tell tell

Him: I keep the pics you sent to me on my work computer and look at them when I’m gone

Me: Look at them? as in…oh yeah theres Victoria?

Him: … well

Me: lol welllll

Him: … look at them and think to myself – there is the perfect woman and a damn sexy one too.

Me: I love you. I think about u too believe it or not

Him: I love you too. I think about you a lot

Me: I just know you arent available, but doesnt mean I dont think about u or wonder what if

Him: I do that a lot think of the what ifs

Me: yeah

Him: well – nice to know someone else thinks of it too

Me: but you know Im always your friend no m atter what

Him: same here

Me: but know that if things were to be ever able to have a chance Id be willing to go there and I wont say no more

Him: Same here. I really mean that

Me: I do too

Him: Sometimes I feel like I’m under the wheels of a train that wont stop and I can’t get up

Me: yeah I bet

Him: … theres a lot I wish I could say

Me: say whatever u need to

Him: … but I’m just kinda staring at the screen, I’m glad that I know you.

Me: Have I ever given u what I wrote? about that nite we were together?

Him: no

Me: Ill have to get it from my online journal and send it to u

Him: I would like that

Me: I wrote about that night I was last with u

Him: I think about that night a lot

Me: you want me to look now or off in a hurry?

Him: whao – just send it. 🙂 I would love to read

Me: wasnt it Jan when I saw you?

Him: I think so. Was cold out that night

Me: found it! ok its kinda like a poemy vague kinda thing but its about you and I

Me: its coming I just sent it

Him: BRB

Me: it was Jan 6th 2001 that I wrote that anyways

Him: wow, Leaves a person speachless

Him: beautiful thing you wrote,It was a beautiful thing

Me: yes ya are

Him: I think about that night a lot. It’s my good thought when things get scary

Me: I can remember you

Me: hmm?

Me: whatcha mean?

Him: Just when things get bad and I need a good thought to make me calm

Me: ahh gotcha

Him: .. or day dream

Me: Yeah know what I remember, my lil fave part of it

Him: ?

Me: you got out of your Jeep and the sun was coming up and you were standing there smoking and I had my arms around you siting in the Jeep and you said “You dont wanna get mixed up with me”

Him: lol

Him: Thats your fav part??

Me: I said “I already am”

Him: Oh

lol

Me: yeah it was just weird moment, the cold air,you smokin, it was like a movie kinda scene

Him: Yea – but it was a good moment

Me: and using windex

Him: LOL

Me: to clean up : )~

Him: 😀

Me: see thats the stuff the movies dont add, the windex

Him: LOL Yea – totally, Thank you

Me: your welcome

Him: For being you, Well – I’m not one for long good byes. I gotta get back to packing.

Me: Ok MUAH!

Him: I’ll e-mail you when I can – K?

Me: Love ya !

Him: Love you Take care of you

Me: you toooo

Him: .. Iand I promise to stay alive See ya next time