SAD
Dear Diary,
Im totally weepy, depressed feeling. I miss B. Im sad. Im frustrated.
I just called him and ask him what hes doing.
Hes thinking of going to a party with coworkers.
He said I sounded sad. I said “Yeah Im broke, I cant afford to do anything and I miss you”
I told him I had to go. I just feel all emotional. And what more can I say? I want to see him?
Come over and spend time with me?
He said hed come tomorrow.
Im just frustrated that I cant go or get invited or this or that, etc etc
Im just SAD.
Sad I dont have a guy who cant wait to take off and see me on the weekend when hes finally free.
I feel like I sound all weird and clingy.
I can see why Mr C and I did get to know eachother. We both wanted someone who wanted to share a lot of time. B doesnt desire that, I do.
Dang Im all crying and Mr Producer man is telling me I deserve better, what is my man thinking, why isnt he with me? Why see me once a week, and on and on, as Mr C would say, and here i am again sitting home alone….
Im all bawling, God its gotta be PMS but mixed it the PMS is my feelings of just wanting a partner around.