Im A Girlfriend?

Dear Diary,

I attempted to write an entry yesterday and computer locked up on me! Grrrr hate that. Yesterdays entry would have been depressing and sad and just me dealing with things inside of myself.

So as of today? Well I brought some issues to the Date Man last night. I was afraid to do it but I had been having some thoughts and questions as to what we are, where we are at and where are we going? Like is there a future or am I just ok for the time being are we just dating?etc etc. So I went for it last night, and the result of the convo? Well he had been thinking the same thoughts as of late. Ok I know this sounds all highschool like, but we have agreed that we are in a committed exclusive relationship aka Boyfriend and Girlfriend. As far as many other issues we both agreed the children and some other things will follow with the finality of the divorce. He said to me “You have a whole new load of things you are going to have to face and it will be tough” Which I agreed. I think my Ex is in denial that we are over. And hes never been able to let me go the times I did leave him. Of course Im praying this will be different but I have to be prepared for the worst also. Im very thankful he doesnt live in the state so I have that to my advantage. Plus I have the support group and a file on his behaviors should he start up with the obssessive following and all that or bothering the date man I will proceed with a restraining order.

Now its not like im shouting from the rooftops HEY IM IN A RELATIONSHIP, the children and my mother are a few things that will wait on hearing such news. But my sister already knows, I will end up telling me other one when we have time to visit. And my employers are well aware and many of my friends know about Date Man.

So yes Im happy. I do feel silly like a school girl. He was so sleepy when I hung up the phone last night and he said before hanging up “Psssst” I said “What?” His response all giddy “Your my girlfriend” lol I laughed it was so cute and we hung up.

So Im leaving in about 30 min. Im driving down to his place then we are off for a good long drive to see DC Talk in concert tonight. We will get a nice chunk of time together there and back and then the concert from what Ive read in reviews is around 3-3 1/2 hrs long. I wonder what he will think of it? But hes all cool with going.

So Im off for a day with my Sweetie, he called me on my cell phone while I was at the cleaners and said I love you. I was all flustered looking at the counter, haha he loves me? I know he does, but there is just the openess and relief with knowing where we are at now.

YAY