Family Group Hug
Dear Diary,
Well, its so weird. My kids are gone until July 5th!
They are officially gone now.
Its sorta nice being alone tonight. Just doing whatever at whatever pace. And plus I didnt go to work today so Ive been home, well off and on between trips to mechanics, dealing with Triple A and all that part.
I got up this AM about 8, and I mowed the back lawn, my little one raked, I sprayed down the back patio and pulled some weeds. I trimmed some super long branches on the tree too.
My vehicle has more to do then Id hoped. My sleigh? Cylinder went out, which is about a $300 job when I had it done in 2001. And my main mechanic doesnt do those, so I had to have it towed a second time to the other mechanic Ive used, luckily hes closeby.
Mom has lent me her truck, so whew Im not stranded.
The guy might be able to get it done by Friday, but if not first of next week, praying its done before the weekend! Cause I cant take Moms truck out of town to B’s, she only wants me driving it local.
AND I have our trip to Santa Barbara planned for the 4th and need my vehicle! 🙂 Oh well, take it as it comes, worst scenario we rent a car.
Later on kids and I went to the grocery store, bought some already made fried chicken and a cake, mmmmm I dont want to deal with cooking. So I have enough for myself for the next few days. YAY.
So I met up with Ex at about 5:30 at Carls Jr to get the kids. His goatee is getting super nasty long. Ewwww
He commented on my toes, I said “Umm nice beard” and he laughed and said “Oh I know how you hate it, and this too” And took his hat off to show his shaved head.
The goatee makes him look old and ugly, and the guy has a nice head of hair, no receeding or any of that or balding, but he shaves it off?
Anyways, thats what makes him happy, so?
He seemed to want to talk some, I gave him the note I wrote him, and we talked about several things, we talked about work, the vehicles, the repairs on the house, his living situation, the camp he is working at, how his Gpas girlfriend(the guy I just got the tires from) is drinking again.
He said they had a Fathers day event and got Gpa a chair and he cried and said he didnt deserve it.
Gpa is an interesting man, hes in his 70s. Still is working full time. He lives with his girlfriend/common law, whatever you call it, J. I have visited her since the split, shes one of the few that totally is cool to me and just gets it and what I go through and Ive gone out and visited her, shes had some cancer probs and come close to death from alcohol several times. And I guess shes back drinking. I feel bad for her and for Gpa.
Maybe I should go visit her, 🙁
She always has enjoyed my visits, and wants me to come back again. And gpa has always been good to me and enjoys the kids.
Anyways, we just talked a lot, and well, as he was leaving, he came towards me to HUG me.
Mind you my ex and I dont hug much. I would hug him but he gets upset and says NO. And this has been an issue for a few yrs now.
When he hugged me my oldest ran over and grabbed us both and got in and hugged, then youngest jumped out of the truck and oldest said FAMILY HUG! and we all stood there in a hugging circle in the parking lot.
Omgosh it was the cutest sweetest thing.
It was kinda nice you know?
So my ex has been ousted to the garage of the guy hes living with. I didnt know the guy only had a 2 bedroom for he and his son, and my ex uses the other room for he and the boys.
Well anyways, Im cleaning house, digging out garbage, throwing stuff away, putting stuff up for sale. Ive put up wedding gifts and jewelry gifts from my ex. Its so weird looking at this stuff, and im just pulling things of shelves as I wander through the house that are just knick knack dust collectors, but some of them are collectible items, so Ive saved teh orginal boxes, dusted them off, and now someone else can have them, and I can make some cash. I need some to be honest. Ive about depleted my savings, except for the money to redo my shower.