Friend From Past

Dear Diary,

Im sitting here just in shock, partial tears….

I was emailing with B, he met a person in the local chat room last night that went to the same school as he and he got updates on classmates and all. either they went off into drugs or they married and had kids….

I was relfecting over my HS friends, Im only in contact with 2. Others off and on or I get updates.

Typically I type in names of people in search engines online to see if I can find anything.

So,,

I did it while writing B. I typed in the girl who was my best friend through HS.

And the first site that pops up is her and modeling pictures! Im all OMGOSH, Ive gone through each picture just staring at her. My eyes filled up with tears, part of the photos I didnt really even think were her, I had to stare closely, then others, were totally here, so Im gathering they are a mixture of older and newer pics. There is no date on them though for me to tell.

She also fudged on her age. Says shes born in 77, more like 72 on her profile.

Anyways, I was cleaning my garage this past Sunday and had a box of papers and things, thing from High School. Last Will and Testament of the senior class and awards and things like that. And then I had her ZED modeling cards in there. I used to go with her and her parents to auditions and once she had to be a live mannequin model at a mall and we just went and hung out as she worked. She also did some local modeling shows.

Anyways, for the update on what happened to those that dont know. Her parents were wealthy, super controlling. She and I graduated high school and both had boyfriends and she barely could have a life outside what they said or work or school. We had a Zoo day planned and at the last minute the told she was not allowed to go but had to do laundry, she got upset and left the house and came to mine. She said “Fuck it Im going anyways” and we all went out for the day and had a blast. I still have photos of her and her boyfriend then, ah he was a good cool guy too, really good to her.

Anyways. We got home and she was scared, called her house and her dad was cussing and screaming in the phone, we were on my bed, she hung up and said “Hes going to hit me”

I told her she was an adult, me and my then boyfriend/(my ex husband) told her she didnt have to stay there she can walk out, shes an adult at 18. And so we all drove her home, said if your parents do anything come out and we will wait to make sure you are okay. And we told her to signal through her bedroom window if all was okay.

So we all sat outside her house, me, my ex, and her boyfriend.

Nothing, no windown signal. just nothing, so we wait.

We then hear far off screaming and Im all “is that her???” As it sounded so strange and far away.

The guys got out of the car, my ex peered in the window of the house and said “They are hitting her!” And the boyfriend rang the doorbell. The guys were then ordered by the father to get off the property. I ran to the neighbors to call 911. The neighbor just stared at me like I was nuts. I was crying saying “Call the police, they are beating their daughter next door” The woman said “No, not them, they are such nice people” I said “COME OUTSIDE! Here her screams!” the woman finally got me the phone.

By the time I got off 911 I walked outside to find my girlfriend in my car with her arms hugging my car seats and her parents trying to yank her out and the guys yelling at them to stop, Now the neighbors were coming out, a sherriff arrived very fast. And then my friends older brother came home and went right after my ex husband attacking him like all this was his fault?(this part was weird cause he witnessed none of this nor new my ex)

See her bro had a crush on me and was stalking me practically and when we found out it was him, well I wasnt interested( secret notes in my locker, flowers, music delivered at my house) He then threatened suicide if I didnt go out with him. My friend asked me to please go. This was when I was geesh 15 or so? So being stupid then I went to a movie with him. I hated it. And that was it,so after that he was depressed if I came over and would not eat dinner so the mother wouldnt allow me over cause I upset her baby.

My gal pal had probs with Anorexia but I did not know, she got called in at school asked about it once, and then her parents watched her to try and made sure she ate dinner.

She and I did school lip sync acts together, she was smart, we wrote a lot of notes to eachother, and our yearbooks have full pages we wrote in tears to one another.

Well after that episode with the police she came and stayed with me and my family. My parents loved her. The mother called our house with a death threat. We made police reports. Later she moved to Iowa to live with relatives, we warned her about going as we didnt know how they would support her or believe her. She left, wrote me a letter on the airplane, I think I got two letters after she moved. I wrote her too.

I had the number at her aunts, but kept getting put off, after 4 times of being told shes asleep or what have you, I got her cousin once who seemed uncomfortable lying to me and then the aunt grabbed the phone and said “She doesnt want to speak to you!” I said “Why?” She said “She got all that she wanted from you and she wants nothing more to do with you!” CLICK

And that was it.

In my garage I found a bunch of her poems she wrote, as she wrote tons and I made copies. I sent her bday and christmas cards for almost 5 yrs after this happened, they were never sent back, but she never replied either.

I saw her finally at the mall a few years later, she looked away from me. But that was well over 10 yrs ago.

Other then that NOTHING.

Its one of those empty pieces you know? Of what happened? We shared so much together? Why did she stop talking to me? What did they do?

And even now they were are older and shes on her own, why no word from her still to this day?

She lives in the town according the internet where B was living. Its about 40 min from me.

Its so weird, seeing her photos, looking at her face and her eyes, wondering what has happened to her, what is she like now? Is she okay?

She looks worn, her lips look like they have been injected, shes super skinny, B said ewww to the photo and said he could easily snap one of her legs. You can see her collarbones and all.

I just wish I could talk to her…