Lotsa Driving

Dear Diary,


Ive been wanting to write, yet not in the mood to type it all. So we shall see how much I can get accomplished.


Im sitting here listening to the CD from Music Dude.


I had a good birthday. B came over, he arrived about 30 min after I got home from work. He brought me my favorite dish for dinner and a gift. He got me Lord of the Rings on DVD, which I wanted. 🙂 I plan to watch it this weekend.


We had to rush to the childrens dentist to pick up a medication for him for his appt today. Then we went back to my house with an hour to spare and ate dinner.

B came in this weird shirt, haha his roomies, the guy is big, large and heavy and it was just odd to see B wear one of his shirts, and it was yellow and white and sorta, ummm not B’s style, or that Im used to? And how do you tell someone you think it looks icky? haha. He liked it so?

We got the kids and my little one was spazzy as usual and whining over a box in the backseat they had to cram between. At one point B reached and moved his arm sorta coldly and said “Knock it off BOY” I just sat there and it just struck me weird. “BOY?” It sounded like the voice of some old mean father youd see in a movie calling the child BOY. I looked at my little one to make sure it was ok. Like the way he spoke to him. I didnt like it. But he seemed fine.


We got back to my house and hung out while kids did homework and ate, Mom was gonna come over so B and I could see a movie. My oldest climbed up behind B on the couch and was rubbing his head. HAHA, he just shaved his head so he liked the feel. So they were all comfy together on the couch.


Mom arrived and we went to see “Trapped” it was pretty good. We then went to Marie Calendars for pie. It was cool but also in my head a bit confusing. I suggested we go there, and he wanted to take me to do what I wanted for my Bday. Then we get there and I say I want Chocolate Silk or Choco Cream pie. He wants to get a whole pie, because he says its too much to buy 2 pieces, yet doesnt want the ones I name. So we opt for a Kahlua Cream Cheese Pie which I agreed to. Well then they said if you order a whole pie you cant eat it there its for take out only. So you have to buy by the slice. I had told B even before we went out I just wanted to go sit somewhere with him out and talk and hang out, so sitting over dessert was perfect. Well instead he wanted the pie to go so we got up to go. I was accomodating of this. Even though Im thinking inside “Ok so he says this is for me and my birthday and get what I want, its for you” yet I felt I was compromising for him. I dunno. I felt hes paying, so? He has started lately to pay for EVERYTHING. Hes done it the last few times Ive been with him. He even bought the kids meal yesterday.


So we got back to my house and ate the pie, Its was good. 🙂 and we just relaxed on the couch. Then went to bed. It was a very sensual hot evening. 🙂 The kind where you just pass out in exhaustion before you can say I love you and goodnight. Never waking up once until morning.


The morning was nice, I laid there for 15 min snuggled up with B and we talked about how good we both slept. I was laying on his chest pressed up against his side. With the cieling fan turning and it just feeling so perfect.


Got up for work, took kids to school, then had about 45 min to spare. I was once again driving boss wifey for the day for an appt. So B and I snuggled up and I ate then headed out.


Well I ended up having to take my boss to B’s area! No joke like 5 min from his house! So I called B to tell him since he was still at my house and I would just be hanging out down there for a few hours and it would be cool to go to his place or hang with him. So I called and told him. I guess figuring hed drive home? Well an hour passed and no call. I called my house again and he was still there ::Sigh:: I said Id probably miss him even if he left to come home because of the hour drive deal. 🙁 Oh well.


So I went and got a Caramel Frappucino at Starbucks, then went and found a bench near the appt for boss and hung out. Its a trendy little area of nice little boutiques. She was in the salon which I LOVED the look of! It was gorgeous. Just the decor and design of the place, like you were in Italy or something.


I called Music Dude and we talked a bit, he told me he got a raise this morning so he was so happy. Not sure how a boss gets a raise? But he got one. We got talking about child support, he asked me if I felt I was giving his ex enough. They dont have any legal agreement he just pays her. I said as long as they were both happy with it, what am I to say?


We had a good talk and he had to get back to work. I ended up strolling into a cute little boutique and immediatly was chatting with several older women. All dressed so young and acting so youthful. It was nice to see. B’s area is so different then mine. His is very yuppie like, people have or act like they have more money as B says. Its just a different feel, at times I feel out of place.


I ended up getting a cute pair of khaki type short pants of the sale shelf. But they had the coolest shirts but OVERLY priced.


Me and boss headed out for lunch then back to town, then I drove to take youngest for his dentist appt. Whew, I was tired of driving! Hour both ways for her appt! They were able to pass on doing a crown and just a filling on one of his teeth, COOL! So it saved me $75. But my mother arrived with $500 in cash for his dental work. Mom is awesome 🙂 And their Father sucks( telling me hed get me the money, yeah right!Liar once again) hes still not even replied to my email over his dental work and its been 4 days now. Nice to know hes concerned.


Well I was told afterwards my youngest has some enamel problem with his teeth, forget the name. But his enamel is very thin and weak and they said its something he was born with and its genetic and there was nothing I could have done. All we can do is really keep on brushing and flossing. So in a way it was finally nice to know! That it wasnt MY FAULT. I wondered why so many probs. My 6 year old has several root canals and crowns already. All his back teeth and molars were in bad shape at age 5! Yet my oldest had only one bad tooth. My Ex and his mom both have terrible teeth and constant probs. Both ex’s parents dont have their teeth anymore and both have had dentures at an early age. So maybe this is it??? I just need to read up since I told my Mom she said “Is there anything you can do for his adult teeth when they come in? So yeah I do need to ask, because at least these are the baby teeth. But how can we safeguard him in the future?


Well I got home and B left a letter in my bed with the teddy bear. I have to say it is a VERY SWEET letter. VERY NICE, and I was very touched. He talked about how beautful I am, how I get better as I get older, how Ive blossomed gracefully and all these really nice things I wasnt expecting to hear. It was very touching to read. 🙂


This is why the relationship is very conflicting for me, these wonderful parts of him mixed with the parts that are dark or that I dont care for.


So Im sitting at home, my little one crashed out when we got home hes asleep. I cant wait for the weekend! I so want to sleep in!


Im off for now!

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