What a Dick
Dear Diary,
Well, what a way to kill the way I was feeling about Gym Guy today, guess it was needed.
I go into counseling. I hadnt been in 4 mos! My therapist said I even looked different, shes all “Have you lost weight?” Im all yeah about 5-7 pds.
Wouldnt think that would be noticeable but I have been getting comments lately.
Anyways, so I tell her how much I miss Cute Gym guy to h ang out with and that stuff.
I was driving to the gym afterwards thinking of him, His birthday is this month and what I could do? Take him out to eat at the Outback since hes never been but wants to go? Or make him dinner and a cake? Or take something to his place? Or do I keep it simple, just a card? A gift?
I walk into the gym hes walking right by, we say Hello, he smiles and says “I have a question for you” and Im all “okay?” Hes smiling and then puts his arm around my back and stands close to me, WOW in the gym in front of all. And then he says “Can I have you for my present?”
I said “What?” hes all “Will you be my present?” I said “Whats that supposed to mean?” I repeated it again as he just stood there in front of me. He just looked at me, then walked away.
I motioned him back over about 20 min later and said “Did you want to do something?” Thinking hes just being a smartass or something. He said “Yeah I want you in that maid outfit and the fishnets” I said “Well Im not doing that” and he walked off again. I was personally pissed after that. What the fucking hell???? You totally are a dick at my house sexually and apologize, we have the friend talk, then this shit?
I didnt talk to him any further, didnt really even look at him. I left the gym without saying bye or anything. I was listening though as a bunch of the guy were chatting and ribbing eachother, Cute Gym Guy was with them. They were ragging on this one guy, then next thing you know they dogged gym guy, were teasing him for how often hes in the gym, and at that point gym guy walked away to the bathroom. I know him well enough to know he gets upset when hes the focus. So after he walked away these 2 other guys are still talking, within my earshot and saying “Yeah he was here later yesterday, yeah I think he has a secret admire here, I think shes here now” Just being total jerky guys. I just smiled to myself.
I dont know whats up with him, Im more and more dissapointed to be honest. Hes becoming a typical guy, I liked the guy I could lay there and talk to about our lives and all that stuff, now hes just so physical/sexual consumed. Also he said the viagra pill he did take that night the bad evening happened, he said it worked, so perhaps he feels like a new person, who just wants to go out and have sex, which is fine, just scratch me off the list of candidates. I am not just looking for a fuck buddy. I miss hanging with him more then anything. He made some comment once at my house about his sexual dysfunction and said “Ahhh its probably good it doesnt work right anyways or else Id be a total asshole if it did”
Im dissapointed in him.
But it sure did kill my urge of missing him.