Movie and Missing Him

Dear Diary,

Well got home from work and just played online. I was really pissed off. I went to Quiznos for dinner and I hadnt eatin lunch and just snack stuff for breakfast and I had no groceries really at home. Id never stopped at the new Quiznos here in town. Well needless to say, there was a wait, and this woman with a bunch of kids with coupons, there were some mixups and the woman who brought these kids in was getting very annoyed.

Im generally always the patient one, especially with people who are in fast food services. So I just waited a good long time as they apologized to me a few times and said theyd be with me soon. So finally the take my order. I stated which ingredients I wanted ONLY on the sandwich. Later when I went to pay the girl says “Do you want onions?” Im like “No? I want…. and named off the 3 things once again” So I get it, pay and leave, I checked it in my vehicle and letters spills out of the paper before I even unrolled it all. I didnt want lettuce? I open it up and its full of lettuce. GRRRR I think, ah just pick it off, but its that shredded lettuce and its all stuck in the dressing. So I go back in and tell them I had asked not to have lettuce. Im still nice about it all, she apologizes and says they were really busy she is sorry. No prob I say. I wait then get it and leave. I open it up again. AND I KID YOU NOT! Its the same damn sandwhich, she litterally just picked off the bulk of the lettuce, but there was still lettuce in it! So now Im pissed off. If I wanted it picked at Id have just kept it and not came back in! So I debate going back in. But Im starving and heck I dont have money to blow I just wanted dinner and I want to enjoy it, and well I waited a long time to even get this in the first place. So I walk back in. Time for Victoria to be a little more assertive. I tell her “Listen all you did was pick some of the lettuce off, theres still lettuce in it? ” She says YES? Im like “I dont want a sandwhich thats been picked through. I want what i originally ordered” I dont know if the girl was new or what? Its like she didnt want to listen to me? And maybe her english wasnt good? But I walked over to watch them MAKE the sandwhich this time, heck I know people get annoyed with customers who complain, and I didnt want anyone spitting in my sandwhich. I guess I just couldnt believe all she did was dump out the bulk of the lettuce and wrap it back up and hand it to me that other time?? And there was still lettuce on it!

So I go home and relax, Sit online a bit and talk to drool dude. Music guy comes on, Im like “Arent u leaving?” He said yes at 8pm tonite. So we chit chatted some. He said he was excited about going. He asked what I was doing and I told him going out tomm nite with a friend. Then I just vented some about my ex.

I tried calling a woman from group, no answer, so I called the girl R who I was hanging out with for awhile, her and her hubby C, the people from church who know my ex and were around when all the drama was occurring. When I called she said “Wow, we thought you fell off the face of the earth!” Heck they never call me! I last called them. So I thought they wanted some space after my ex made allegations about her hubby being questionable around the children.

So we caught up a little, they were going to the movies tonite anyways and said I could go with, but they were gonna see action flicks. I wanted a chick flick.

Had some more good talk online with Drool dude. I havent really gotten to hear his story. He keeps referring to how he lost everything! And then doesnt want to go into it at the moment says its very painful. Just threw out a portion of it tonight, said he trusts me to tell me but needs the right moment to share it. I said I understood. I do, cause there are times it seems often I dont want to talk about B with people. I just dont want to talk about it anymore. Not right now anyways.

I then called my Mom and asked her if she wanted to see a movie. So we did! We went and saw My Big Fat Greek Wedding. 🙂 It was cute, I saw a few trailers before hand, one was for Chicago, I wanna see it! And the other was for that Antwone, whatever his name is,,, the movie about the black navy guy based on a true story. They both looked good! And the Chicago will have some music and dancing. I love those kinda movies!

My mom informs me that the chick A was in the truck. Well guess shes idiot enough to date him again. And he goes and brings her right to pick them up. Well at least the kids got 3 visits alone with their Dad prior to this. So it will be an interesting weekend Im sure. Hes living with A’s cousin so I believe. I really cant fathom how he could have gotten his own place, unless hes just lying to me or borrowed money. And if that woman isnt smart enough to see what kinda guy she is with, well shame on her. I guess I had a little faith in her? That maybe she figured out what he was like, but guess not. Well hey now you got him unemployed and living at the bottom, enjoy him honey!

I know I know Mistery loves company.

But really, I see this all as a big disaster waiting to happen. My ex doesnt do well with relationships. Friends ones either. And then to live with a guy who is young and was troubled, and then date her cousin? Ugh thats just too much. So I give it about a month still things start to go haywire somewhere.

When I was waiting for my Mom at the movies I ran into a couple from my old church, yeah the one I cant stand. Well they have since left also. Me and my ex were going to a Marriage builders bible study at their home back in the day, I wrote about this before. And they are going to the church that I last attended but havent been to in a few mos. So it was good to see her. I seem to run into them often. She is such a sweet and beautiful woman. So she hugged me. She just had surgery. She is a young beautiful woman, she looks Italian but really she is something else. I believe from Pakistan? I cant recall, somewhere where women cover themselves. But she has had some serious health problems, back surgeries, her spine, been in wheel chairs at times. She said she just had surgery a few weeks ago on her bladder and rectum and has to keep having MRIs and her liver has lesions now. So she said she couldnt stand beign home so they were gonna see a movie, but she said she really wasnt up to it but felt bad for her husband since hes been so wonderful taking care of her and shes been homebound.

I just cant fathom this woman. Shes been in pain for so long. She said “Im so tired of being sick, Im like Ok God?” I hugged her, and I really do need to call her and go see her. She is one of those people I have always felt good about and is very encouraging. I also introduced them to my mother.

So here I am at home. Its a little after 10 pm. I was missing B as I left. I really am contemplating driving out around midnight to see if hes home or wait for him to arrive, just so I can sleep snuggled up with him. Its a little strange for me, Ive been more set lately on not going to see him and not wanting to drive out, so why tonight? Im actually missing him.

I think the movie touched me in some ways. First off seeing them date, going to dinners and sitting talking. Oh how i miss that. And then how this man in the film did all of these things for the woman he loved. It was a very sweet story.

I miss those warm special romantic times with B so so much. I miss eating out at a restaraunt and sitting on his side of the table bench, him taking my hand and kissing the back of it.

So anyways! I checked my machine when I got in, found a message asking for my 6 yr old from a girl from his old private school! It was so cute! It said “Hi there, can #### come to our school, this is ####” And she left her number. HOW SWEET! This is the little Hawaain girl who called him when he was in school there. And my son always loved her. Just very precious the way these 2 are with one another. So he will be excited to hear she called when he comes home.

So we shall see if I head out to Bs tonite, post more later…