With my Boo, think about is you

Dear Diary,

Im gonna leave in an hour to go and see Spider Man again with the kids at the discount theatre. I personally loved that movie and wanted to see it again in the theatres, so we are going!

I havent spoken to Mr C in 2 days. 🙁 He last called me while at that concert when I could hardly hear him. I have called and left him 2 messages but no word so Im leaving it alone.

I think more about the thing with him, he is a great guy but hes too pushy and seems to think in his mind things are further or where he wants them to be. Yet then he turns around and tells me opposite things, like follow your heart, give him a shot, your not losing me as a friend Victoria, blah blah blah, You call the shots when it comes to physical involvement, I understand, then he turns around and pushes the very things hes told me its ok to hold off on. Im not saying hes a bad guy, its just that I started to become clear and repeat to him what it is Im wanting and doing, and maybe he was just denying? not wanting to hear it and hoping I didnt really mean it? Who knows.

I have been reading this awesome book. I LOVE IT, and its a real eye opener. Last night I was reading it while waiting to pick up the kids in the parking lot and its just so profound, such wisdom in very simplistic terms. Its causing me to view so many things in my life through brand new eyes, eyes Ive never seen things through, so it is quite exciting though, freeing, and liberating! But Ill write more about that when I have the time.

B came out last night, arrived about 10pm, he came straight from working on his Jeep because he didnt want to arrive any more later, He was all serious when he arrived, I greeted him outside. Its like he felt bad he was dirty, and that he was hungry. I said shhhhh and gave him a kiss and told him dont worry about it. He was all “Can I trouble you for a shower?” Im like sure. Thats not trouble silly.

So he didnt have a change of clothes. I had a pile from my yard sale of clothes ex left he didnt want so I handed B a tshirt and shorts. He showered and I fixed him up some chicken to eat. We sat together at the table and he talked about how hard it was with what they did to the Jeep. I just listened, its reminscent of marriage, in good ways. Sitting together for dinner after he gets home and hearing about his day. 🙂

He said “Ok enough about me, and how are you?” I told him I was fine listening to him, he said “Do you have any idea how good it is to be here with you right now” I then fed him the last of the ice cream, he was a happy guy. 🙂

We talked some but we were both tired so we curled up together and fell asleep. He had to leave early again today to go back and work on the Jeep and I made him some cinnamon rolls and sent him off.

I have been having a sore throat that just lingers, I pray I dont have something, its mainly bothersome in the eves. But i notice the cieling fan running makes it worse, so Ive been gargling with salt water. But my counselor and a work employee have both had this summer cold thing, but my throat has been hurting well over a week and just in the eves.

I always panic and think its Mono. Since I had it once when I was 18. I was tired needing naps daily and thought I had strep throat since my throat hurt so bad at night. Went to the dr to find out it was Mono. Nothing I could do but rest and take my vitamins.

I need to get more sleep and eat better.

B was telling me this AM about when we first met, he said “I thought you were so beautiful and was bummed to hear you were married” we talked about timing, how we were glad things happened in the time they did, when I was finally separated and how it blossomed from there. He had always had an attraction/interest in me. I wouldnt say it really happened, even though I loved the guy, until that night after my separation and him inviting me to that party at his place.

I was sharing with him about that song out right now with Nelly and Biance, “No matter what I do, all I think about is you, even when Im with my Boo, all Im thinking bout is you” I didnt know the song was about a woman having an affair and how she couldnt stop thinking about the man she was with.

Yes ex and I attempted to work things out during my time seeing B, and I told B how it seemed he was always in my mind and how much I missed him when I was with my Ex. B had taken my heart really,:)

And the Boo, well I used to call my ex booboo, so that even made the lyrics even more interesting.

Well time to finish getting ready, Im in the mood for movie popcorn with butter, mmmmmm