Fly on the Wall

Dear Diary,

I just had a blast from the past person message me online. It was interesting chatting again. I used to be a part of this chat room about 4 years ago. A regular and we would to the meetings up in person and the chat room had all the usual drama as most do or just like this site does.

I guess this guy B is back. Oh boy, B. haha. He and I had some fun times on the telephone. I met him once in person also. I had a girlfriend with me though. So we just hung out at a bar. But he and I had this intense sexual chemistry online and on the phone, the guy has the sexiest Brad Pitt type voice. I think during the unhappy portion of my marriage all of this was thrilling for me. These guys were safe to talk to and flirt around with online. But now I dont even have any desire for them anymore. So it has been sometime. I guess B was asking about me, hes back on the internet again. And there was gossip flying around the other guy L. I met him about 5 years ago on a trip to DC. These guys were the hot men of the chat room. But with time. Well one has been married 5 times, various children, always leaching off some woman to live with then fooling around, and staying and using her until he gets kicked out. The other guy is married twice, lost custody of his child, and is just a sexual thing with the ladies but has no concept of a relationship. So these are men I spent a lot of time talking to years past, and I dont wish to go back to those types of men. Not what I want in my life. But was interesting hearing how they havent changed.

The girl who messaged me is a christian, we hung out together years ago and went to the beach with our children. Her husband is into porn though and she has a lot of mistrust towards him and about lying to her with what he is doing on the net. It was nice to hear from her, but that chat room is a part of the past now. I dont wish to go back.

The only thing Ive held onto from there is Spy Man. I met him there in that room, but he was never a regular part of it nor attended the functions, eh and I just met up on our own.

Onto other things, boyfriend said he would be in around 9 or so, we shall see. Hes not always good with time. I did something today. I found the website for his old highschool, and guess what, theres a picture of this woman teacher on it. So I know who she is now, well looks wise anyways. Shes an attractive older woman. She sorta resembles me, haha, we have the same type of cheek structure and boyfriend always has a thing for women with darker hair. Hes not much for blondes. I wonder what they talk about, I wonder what he says to people about me and our relationship. Oh to be a fly on the wall. 🙂