Talk Tonight

Okay

I have to leave in a few to pick up youngest, have to get myself together.

I spoke to bosswifey who told me to get a support group for Narcotics or marijuana anonymouse ASAP to help ME.

I did find a chat room with meetings. Hopefully I can be there for the next one its in 4 1/2 hrs

I think Im going to TALK (they didnt like me using the word confront in the chat room) and to tell him HOW I FEEL, and that I SET THE RULES SINCE IT IS MY HOUSE. But to be prepared that he may choose the pot use over the relationship.

I was talking to this one guy about people who are stoned and how to tell. He said “Their eyes are half closed, glassy”

HALF CLOSED, if anyone knows B, thats how hes pretty much always looked, there are so many snapped photos of him like that and I thought it was just the way he looks.

It explains so much.

Yet I have to tell him tonight Some things. They said talk about ME and not him, not sure how well I will do with that, but I have to put my foot down of what I will accept in the life of my kids and I. At this point hes in denial. And its not casual use. I know this now. The red light came on today with the constant hook up calls and papertrail via the phone records, hes been calling since Nov that Im aware since we got the cell phones.

Say a prayer for me tonight, this wont be easy.