Past Friend
Dear Diary,
Well I did my first morning pages today. 3 pages on paper. So it does drain you from sharing as much. 🙂 but nothing wrong with that.
Well Im on day 3 of waiting for this Dental Insurance account for the kids. Ex said he would have it for me yesterday. I wrote him again last night about it.
He left a voice mail last night saying he was Busy and the day was hectic and hed get to it first thing this AM. Well its noon now, no word yet. I guess part of me wants to believe he has it, since hes stringing me along with his promise. So Im a small bit hopeful maybe there is a policy? But I will just write him an email each day till he either gives it or cracks and says he doesnt have one. Cause eventually hes going to get tired of hearing me.
His voice was all Nice on the message and saying hello to me and he will get me that info and not talking jerk like.
I forgot to write that I receieved an email on Saturday from a friend of mine I havent heard from in awhile. This guy I considered to be my best friend and online confidant for sometime during my marriage.
He is married also. And we did spend real life time together. We went out on about 3 different occassions alone and went to a few parties where we were both there. He is a sweetie pie. Adorable. Smart. And he had been having an affair for almost 3 yrs with this woman and he would talk to me about it. He finally ended it. I really was contemplating a full fledged affair with him when I was all screwed up in the head and thinking I couldnt leave my marriage and even through the proposition at him. I think he thought I was joking, but then later on I started counseling and realized I didnt want to be somebodies lover, but there LOVE.
He has a child and a wife. So from what he says now he is happy with his wife.
I have to say he listened and was there so much and we used to talk so much online back and forth. We come from similar backgrounds. So we could relate on a lot of things. He was one of those men who has everything, a good wife, nice job, home, child, but he literally was just BORED.
I told him to send me pictures of himself, I want to check him out, he looks so handsome when his hair is short. And we both cannot ever deny the physical attraction between us. It was always there.
So its nice to hear updates on his life. Hes doing well. I do miss him so much and we threw out the idea of meeting for lunch sometime. We shall see. Whats ironic is this guy was actually talking to a woman B was serious with a few years ago. So they all know who eachother is. And B says “Oh hes probably heard some bad stuff about me” Also he just spoke to that ex about a week ago. She married after she left B, got pregnant. Well she informed him last week shes getting a divorce now.
Well B is excited about vegas and for once dreaming about what we will doing and getting excited. So soon!
Im off!