Afraid of Life when its Good?

Dear Diary,
Im feeling quite happy as of late. A lot of good things are happening.

And I feel like Im over happy about it or something?

Perhaps because of living with what I have for sooo soo many years of yuck, and moments of good mixed in, it just seems lately as if things are happening, prayers answered, goals reached, new ventures happening.

And my marriage, I just love this guy. I mean I feel like I say too many nice things and hes prolly getting sick of it, tonite I even texted and asked him after he made it from his flight. He said he liked hearing it.

And I feel even afraid to share with others how happy I am and how good things are going, in my marriage, in our finances, career/job wise, friendship wise.

Like Im bragging, I more listen to people going thru struggles, ladies dating, newly divorced, and I am there to offer feedback, support, listen, a hug, a prayer, and I just go home and want to hug my husband even more as Im so thankful to have him.

And I feel like at times, like Im saying to myself “Life is a struggle, dont get all full of pride or thinking great about your situation, it can change in a second”

Or that God is gonna give me a wake up call to the other stuff in the world.

I have a quote from Joyce Meyers “God will give you double blessings for your former troubles”

Ive had plenty of years of troubles. Its been such a part of my life, it feels good to have a reprieve and feel somewhat like a normal human again and not deal with all the past stuff.

I guess I just want to find a way to lock these good moments in and make them last…..

I know it cant be forever, life has things that crop up and bring sorrow, sadness, pain, etc.

I guess Id like to have a better handle on them and a strong faith to keep pressing forward through it,

Anyways, yeah, my husband is awesome, working his behind off to take care of us, sacrificing, wanting to care for me, provide for me, buy me things, things I dont even ask for, and being very selfless, and he lights up with simple things with me cooking him a meal or bringing some food over to him or getting him stuff to take to help fight off this cold bugs hes had.

I guess thats the other hard part,I didnt have a man who cared for me like this before. In the past it was giving expecting to get something, now its just pure unselfish, I care about you and Im putting your needs above mine because I love you.

Its nice, makes me wanna cry