Ex Reply

Dear Diary,

Hiya, B is out, he went to Best Buy to buy a game and I sent him to Barnes and Noble to look for a book for me while hes at it. Emotional Vampires its called and was recommended to me by friends online to help me with the D situation.

So Im super tired tonight. I want to get frisky and in the mood and it seems I have the idea but by a minute or so of laying in bed Im too tired to put forth the effort. Dammit

I need a good nights sleep cause last night just ruined me.

I have a facial tomm morning at 9:45, its a facial with a facial massage and neck and shoulder massage. Yeah Id like a full on hour massage but I love the facials also and if I had to get one I wanted the facial cause I like how it makes my skin all glowy, plus the facial massage is amazing, only massage that has put me to sleep when I go in.

But yeah I was talking to Adored today about massages and all that, that I should just schedule them once a month or so, make it a regular health maintenance thing, even if I dont have the money, just charge it the times I dont. It wont kill me.

So maybe Ill look into that tomm when I go in. Id like a facial series or treatments special or something for several visits too.

But tomm is paid for by B, YAY! He actually called and paid for it over the phone, woohooo!

No word from D today, the home phone rang once and i couldnt stand it, I unplugged it, I dont even have my answering machine on now or my bedroom phone plugged in.

I sold another book today and a box of candles. YAY!

So I wrote the Ex today since Ive not heard back from him in over a week.

He did respond today…

Vicky,
Yes things are getting
squared a
away. I moved all my stuff out of her apartment that monday and am kinda
staying with uncle. (The girlfriend) and i are still talking and working
out what
happend. I dont expect you to understand cause i know you wont but she
is a
good woman. but just cause we are talking dosnt mean that we are
together. the
last few weeks i have had some time to do alot of thinking; I have
started
looking for a real job and have a interview with a company down in
hunington
beach this friday. I am tired of living the way i have been. I really
want to
do somthing with myself.
I will look in my jeep for youngests jacket… what does it look like?

So we shall see, obviously the Uncle I called got to him for the time being as hes down there and looking for a job again( I told his uncle about the child support issue)

I can hope, I dont have much hope, but you always hope that something will make them start to straighten up.

So technically that means the ex will have the kids the weekend of Oct 8th and resume visits if hes not in the midst of being in stupid drama and can have the kids in a healthy environment.

Day at a time right?

I seriously need to find new friends. I was all thinking how fun it was the holiday I spent with D and her kids that one year, and how we needed to go do more couple things and now all this crap shes just not a good person or a couple to hang with 🙁

So that pretty much just leaves me down to my one local friend K.

Other then that I dont really have people to hang with.

I guess I sat there today and started to take a look at D, the friendship, you know where you look at how much you gave?

Whenever I wanted to do something or invited her somewhere she couldnt go or would flake, but I went places with her on her terms.

I was there when she needed someone to cry to, Yes I did go to her place a few times to cry or talk, so I have to say there was some bits of reciprocation there, and I think it was better awhile ago. She was very welcoming, wanting me over for dinner or things like that. And heck she just called a week or so ago asking B and I to sushi with she and her hubby.

So I thought things were getting better and she said they were, then whammo she goes berserk.

Sighhhhhhhhhhh

So where on earth can B and I meet married people or couples?

I look back to my marriage with my ex and I knew lots but thats because of church.

I dont think Im ready to jump into the church search… hmmm, I just thought of a lady I should call from my old church whos left an open invite for me call when I do bump into her on occassions now and then… hmmm thats a good reminder, maybe I need to look her up!

I just dont want to deal with church pressures and people saying we need to marry and not live together and all that stuff. And so thats where it gets weird with the church folks and the types of churches.

I was doing some internet research the other day, like I said, as soon as the kids are gone, IM OUTTA HERE. I want to take a mini vacation and was figuring Solvang again, and then did some research on Cambria again, found this Bed and Breakfast that also has a wine tour package and the reviews on the place are excellent. Ive never done a bed and breakfast,,, but its pricey, its cheaper on weekday rates of course, but driving to Cambria is a haul, I think its like 6 hrs? But Im not sure, maybe a little less. I went there a long time ago with my Ex. But we didnt stay the night but I remember the cute garden shops.

So its a place Id love to go create a memory in ya know and do something different and just drag B along, but I think hed like the bed and breakfast idea,,, this is the place Im looking at….

http://www.jpatrickhouse.com/

Not sure if I can swing that place but someday perhaps, but regardless Im ready to leave town for some fun and romance and drag B away by the hair.

Later