To Do List ARGH!

Dear Diary,

GoodMorning.

Omgosh I feel so tired, like I want to just go lay down!

Well I guess I should after the last day and a half!

I had 4 1/2 hrs sleep Mon night. Worked a full day, went to the gym, went grocery shopping, picked up kids, went and mowed the back lawn and pulled weeds, cleaned up the shed out back and the patio. WHEW! THen I went to bed around 11:30 last night. Woke up at 7:30am, and here I am, another day!

I just called and made my appt for traffic school. It will be on a Sunday in June, going to the Pizza/Comedy school. I went to that one before years back, might as well enjoy some free pizza while Im going right!

I feel like my life as of late is a big “TO DO” list, Im trying to catch up, get organized, I really need to set up some things in a more organized fashion, namely in regards to paperwork.

Dammit I keep talking about this but I really just need to make a list of what I need, go buy the dang stuff and then set it up at home.

But thats a whole project in and of itself. Ill eventually get to it.

YAWNNNNNNNNNNNN

So after work today my plan is
1. Go by the Tire shop and get estimate on 2 new tires, and possibly purchase and get them today(Depending on price)
2. Gym
3. Mow the front lawn

I wanted to get all the Yard work out of the way by today, my mower works so much better now. I have never taken out the air filter since I bought it, it was packed full of dirt so bad, the spark plug was bad but B cleaned it off really good, Now the mower works so good! Engine purrs, it doesnt stall in thick grass. See, its nice to have a fella around ya know? 🙂 I cant be on top of everything!

I asked him last night if he thinks he can help me take apart the swingset frame out back. I have one thats just the frame and its in the way all the time, no swings or any of that to it, my ex assembled it poorly when we moved, and two of the swings broke off, etc etc, so all that is left is the frame, I just need help disassembling it and then taking it out, I know the trash co will pick up large items but you have to call and have it arranged, I also have a large tv antennae that was on the roof here that I want to get rid of alongside the house.

So my reason to get all the yard work stuff done by today is…

Thursday I scheduled a facial. Friday I have my hair appt. And I dont want to be all out getting dirty and sweaty just after doing all the pampering come the weekend.

I still have to finish the assignment for my class, I think there are only 2 or 3 more classes to go, I need to call over to the college to see which is the last one, but I need to write a 3 page short story to get a grade and I told the teacher Id do that instead of just dropping the class. So he told me as long as I attend one more class and turn that in Ill get a grade. So I need to do that(another thing on my list to do!)

And that Damn DA packet, I swear I get all focused and ready to about send it off, then need some info I dont have then it sits, I need to get that out too, its laying on my office room floor right now. I think Ive given up on going for the medical/dental expenses from prior to the final divorce papers/agreement, its too much to go through, even though My attny office said I could go after that through the DA also, Its just a lot of old paperwork, receipts and Im too fried to go and find all that crap again.

I have enough to write down as it is for now.

Past Due Child Support, Unpaid Childrens Health Insurance, and then his half of uninsured dental/medical expenses. I have to write up a separate sheet for each category, month by month, what is owed, what he paid, etc.

And I want to go out this weekend, WHERE Though?

I dont know…. B said last night “Well did you want me to tag along or is this something you want to go and do yourself?” I laughed and said “You can tag along”

I really wish I just came home this last sat and went out with the gym crowd to the local bar, My Gym Buddy told me they had a blast, haha, about 30 people came that he works with(he works for the prison)

So its like everyone I work with is in some form of Prison Guard, Prison mechanics, Probation Officers, My gal pal L wants to be a Deputy, and then there was the Fed guy(speaking of which havent seen him in awhile)

Im like the one odd ball of the crowd that doesnt work with any of them. Well Gym Buddies wife works for public school system.

But they are such a fun crowd to be with.

OH! last night my girlfriend K in Colorado called!

This was one of my best gal pals during highschool, dating my ex, and early years of marriage( the one we set up with ex’s supervisor on a date and then trouble followed)

Anyways, we literally havent even talked for like a year or more. She sent me a birth announcement and I didnt even know she was pregnant so that was a shocker this past year.

So I tried calling Sunday, left a message, she called last night, said she only had a few minutes but that her husband just remembered my message and told her.

She said she would try to call me today when she has a chunk of time, and then informs me she is pregnant again! Due in December. And the baby she just had is now 1! So now she will have 3 kids here.

EEEEKS! LOL

I swear its like most of my friends have their kids in 3’s all in a row. I had the two then stopped. Not that I cant have more, I just really have been careful and dont want to have another one now.

But even if I did, Id have a wider gap with child #3.

SO i have no idea how her life has been. When we last left off, they were struggling financially and she was working to support them and her parents helping them out.

So I sure hope her husband has gotten his head out of his ass and is supporting them better now.

Dont get me wrong. I dont dislike kids, but Im so tired and so enjoy my free time and sometimes wonder if I will ever have anymore.

To think my kids will be grown up and I could be done and enjoy doing whatever I want to do in the next 10 yrs or so. Sounds really nice in many ways.

A smaller home, moving, thoughts of B and I living wherever we want. Traveling and going places. That sounds really nice to me. 🙂

And I could be doing all of that by the time Im around 40 if I dont have anymore children.

I wonder where I will be when the kids are highschool age?

If I will still be in town? What highschool will they go to.

I went to private school out here, and the school has a good reputation, granted crap happens anywhere of course, but they are really strict on what happens on school grounds. I wonder if I will end up wanting to put my kids in my High School. Wow, to think my oldest is just about 3-4 yrs away from that! EEEKS!

But I believe we are zoned in the spot for the newer public high school that has a good reputation also. So will see when the time comes.

I want to do my best to get these kids off with great educational starts, a desire to make themselves into something, go to college, learn a trade, etc.

Their Father is a drop out. And myself, I did okay in school but had no desire to attend college. I just wanted to have a boyfriend and get married. I didnt have any career aspirations back then and I didnt get much encouragement either. College scared me, it seemed foreign, I talk to my kids about school all the time and allow them to dream, and talk about careers all the time, Ive walked them around the college campus with me and things like that. Its important.

And I just dont want to see them struggle in that area if at all possible as they get older.

B is enjoying his training, saying he makes the class laugh and then yesterday helped the instructor with a computer problem.

Hes kinda flattered right now. B is a interesting personality. He can seem quiet, intimadating, and hes not always social, then there are times he is, he has a pretty quick wit and loves a challange. But he can just say things at times, that are so blunt, to the point, but truthful but say them so matter of fact, that I can see it cracking people up. Because its just the way he delivers it, you dont expect it.

Anyways, off to another day! I also called to get a manicure and pedicure but the lady I like is in Germany and returns the 26th and have to wait for a call from her. She does an awesome job, I get so many compliments, and the last lady I saw, was okay. But nothing like the other one did.

Shes an older German woman to who is just so fun to talk too.

Laterrrrrr