Little Anxiety Episode

Dear Diary,

Well Im home today, got to sleep in! AHHHHHH! My body is so sore from my lower body workout, B told me I need to do some walking if possible, to help flush out the lactic acid in my body which is what causes the soreness. Ill see what I can pull off today.

Well just a little example of how my mind words, the anxiety stuff.

I called B last night a little after 10pm. And it rings and womans voice answers. I was totally caught off guard since B has his own phone in his bedroom since he rents out a room there. And there lots of people talking in the background, it was loud. I just sat there thinking I dialed a wrong number. The woman is all “Hello??” Hello??” Im all “Uh,, is B there?” Thinking I dialed the wrong number. And shes all “Yeah just a second, B!” and I can hear all these people, B gets on the phone and I say “Are you busy” Hes talking but hard to hear, and he says “Let me call you back in about 20 min” I said Ok and hung up.

My frickin mind! Im all “Who was that woman?? Is someone in his room? Is his ex girlfriend over there since shes friends with the family? Why is he letting a woman answer his phone,,,, etc etc” and I was totally in a foul mood.

So Im telling myself “Victoria, just calm down, when B calls you back, just ask who it was, dont freak out, dont assume” Its just so hard for my head to operate differently but Im working on it.

So B did call back. Turned out he was working on his computer down stairs at the kitchen table, and had his phone with him, well he went to the garage to do his laundry so when his phone rang the woman he rents from answered( I didnt think it was her, voice sounded diff on the phone”

And well, thats all it was??? Duhhhh.

We talked a little while, about the flowers he sent, how nice it was, how I liked them, and how we laughed about how it all happened and him teasing me.

Well ex wanted me to drive to my sisters today! HA! Technically according to our paperwork he gets them the last day of school that eve before easter. Well that was Thurs nite, but I knew he couldnt pull it off. SO I said he could come get them earlier on friday if he is able. And that I would have to miss work, cause my mom had an appt. So he tells me “Drive them to your sisters” Which is an hour and a half away! Im like hell no???

Pick up place is stated as my parents house. And Id rather spend the day with them, then drive out of town, miss work, and pay for gas.

Thats his responsibility. So I told him id stay home with them. So Im gathering he will get them at 6pm. Unless he notifies me hes in town sooner.

B has to work a few hrs on Sat. He seemed to feel bad about it, I told him it was ok, I can handle myself. 🙂 Meaning he will have to leave me. Which is no big deal, I understand. Not sure if Ill hang out his place or area, or head home, just see how I feel.

Well not much else to report. One more week till the court date!

I so hope things are finished then! I hope Im divorced and the house is finally MINE!

Laters!