Lotsa Stuff

Dear Diary,

Morning. Ahhh the weather has warmed up ever since this weekend. My kids wore shorts to school today! You can walk out the door in the AM without a light jacket on, I dont have to run the heater during the night. Its perfect weather.

So I went to work yesterday, ran and did some bank errands after, then went home, changed for the gym, the old guy who came over to me a month or so ago and said he wanted to look at my pretty smile while he did sit ups was there, I was on a different machine and he comes up and stands there and says “Ok I have to look at your for a minute so I have your face in my memory” omgosh, its like My Dad hitting on me you know? Hes nice and all, I just smile, but he kept up the gushy remarks and I finally said “Stooooooop!” and hes all “I was wondering if you were gonna hit me with that water bottle” and he walked off. He seems harmless and all. Hes not crude or anything like that.

But as I say, I cant really say how often a guy who I find HOT or great looking, or my type or even around my age, hits on me in public places.

Music Dude says I have a level of maturity that attracts older men, the way I carry myself, not that its a bad thing, I just need a little more of an edge I guess?

So I forgot to write, my friend D called me yesterday left a message. Asking if I was still interested in having a roomate, and she needed a diff place for her kids to be when they visit her, other then her sisters, and she would explain more later.

I dialed back the number on my cell, but it just rang then cut me off, it did it twice, no answering machine either. I wondered if she called me at a pay phone or something. So when I was at the gym a few of her business cards were still there, and I called the number on them. It was disconnected. So last night I tried the first number again and someone answered! So Im gathering it was her sister and said shed give her the message.

Also when I was online my friend A in Florida said she wanted to call me on the phone and at what time. Well shes done this 3 times so far this month! Tells me what time and I get offline and wait and wait, and wait, and NOTHING. So last night she did it AGAIN!

I was like “I swear all my friends are fired, Im famous for having people in my life who say “Call me! I wanna talk! Lets get together! Im gonna call you” and they dont follow through, and Im to the point where I just quit because I dont want to be the effort part of the friendship ya know? So yes I was happy to hear from D, but we shall see how that all pans out. I dont know that she has a job, how can she pay rent, and she needs a place for her KIDS to be with her at, which would mean a 3, 5 and 8 yr old in my home when she has them. And I have no idea how often she has them, every other weekend as before? Or what. And theyd all have to sleep in one room too. But then I think of the great help it would be financially to me renting out a room, but as I said, I havent even talked to her yet to even see whats going on, so cant really say much.

I did some searching yesterday online for Military dude, and well I found a site with his picture, a nominess site, him in uniform, and how he was a person of the year also, Which made pictures he sent me come into place since the ceremony was in Hawaii the site said and he had a pic outside in a Hawaiin shirt with a Leigh around his neck.

I also found out actually what he does, typed in the rank info next to his name on his letters. So its really fascinating for me to know now. 🙂 I printed out 3 different sites, 2 with him on them, and then another with the info of his division and what they do. Hes Navy by the way.

Ok and heres the really crappy part to my entry. I was watching the news at 4pm yesterday and they announced a Serial Rapist in my town. Put up sketches of him. And said they have 3 confirmed rapes he did, and believe they may have 5. And said he targeted a woman in a park and assaulted her as she held her child!

How sick are people!

So it was on again at the 11 oclock news and they said on that one that he forced his way into a womans car.

Hes a black man about 20-25. Really clean looking, smooth voice, dressed nice. And well the sketch, ugh, its like it looks like every black man ya know? I was all paranoid at the gym. It does make one nervous. I live around the corner from a park and I have kids and I have no man at home. I told B about this last night, and hes all “want my gun?” Im like “No I want to borrow you”

So I woke up in the middle of the night, around 4am, and immediatly the thought of that guy popped in my head and I was hearing every little noise outside and getting spooked.

I pray to God they catch him soon!

B didnt go to work yesterday, he still is suffering from his weekend in vegas and all the drinking and lack of sleep. But he is at work today.

I told him about the old guy at the gym flirting with me, and he got all quiet, then I felt all stupid for telling him. I feel I just shouldnt tell that stuff, I dont like hearing about women being all friendly to him, and I am telling him stories often like this. I think I need to keep my mouth shut.

Ex wrote me an email said he cant take the kids this wed, and wants to drop them off sun nite instead of take them to school mon AM.

He said he still wants his weds tho, but to be honest I dont see how hes gonna pull it off and he wants us to work around him. Heck I go to college from 6-10pm Wed! Kids have to be picked up by 6 at the latest at the after school program, eat dinner, do homework, and I get them to bed around 8-8:30.

Ex has a job now, its over a hour and a half away but with traffic could be longer, he gets off at 4:30. So to try and get to the school in time, and then he wants to be able to have them a few hours and them drop them off???? Im in class, which means I have to arrange for someone else to get them, and then have him drop them at my moms, and on and on, and then drive over there at night just to get them back home. So in reality he will only have 2 hrs, and then wants to dump them back on my Mom at night, then me have to go there and get them after bed time or have my mom drive them back to my house to put them to bed. Sorry but doesnt that sound like a bit much you guys??? I refused this type of thing in mediation and said if he wants them on Wed nights he needs to keep them all night. It would be too much. He can arrange child care, or someone to get them to school in the AM if its an issue and hes gotta leave early for work, heck I have to do stuff like that when my schedule doesnt work???

Parents what do you think????

Im gonna have to call the courts, takes about a month to get in, but I need to get the custody changed, if hes already gonna be flaking on wed nites, yet he says he wants them, yet says he cant this week, then he wants to bring them back sun nites as opposed to Mon, so that cuts down his visitation time, and I need that done for support reasons.

Anyways, here are my ex’s letters, hes a dingaling I tell you.

Also I think hes dating again but not sure, some chick who works with his Aunts and I do recall him being interested in a girl when we first separated that worked down in B’s area with ex’s aunt. The kids said they went to her house and she had lots of candy.

Kids are doing well, my little one is a stinker, with his attitude, Im really having to be on him, he just baffles me with his mouth. The kids have chores and take turns each week feeding the dog. So I told him yesterday AM to go and feed him that it was his turn. He said back “No, thats ok, Ill let my brother do it, I dont want to” I turned around and looked at him! Hes 7! And I said “Did I ask you if you wanted to do it? You dont have a choice, its your job this week, now get in there” Then he got all melodramatic saying there was a spider in the dog food bag. And didnt feed the dog was stalling, Mind you, my youngest LOVES BUGS! He has all these bug books, bug catcher things, he isnt scared of bugs, and hes fascinated by them. Even spiders. So I was like “Oh cmon!” and checked it out and saw nothing.

He is very resistant to listening to following rules. And he gets super dramatic about things hes asked to do, talks back and contests things. Which is totally frustrating. I really need to do something to help him. Im not happy with this behavior, and I really want to stop it.

Ok so Ill wrap this up with ex’s letters… ugh Im having trouble accessing my email acct, will post them later….