Bring Military Dude Back

Dear Diary,

Its about 8pm Sunday night. I bought this Mango scented candle and it smells soooo good. Its up on my computer desk.

Well today I slept in till a little after 9am. Kids always get loud and wake me. My bed is so uncomfy. If I havent written before, it was a floatation mattress, but the cylinders began to leak, so I threw them out, but it leaves the inside of my bed hollow. So I have it stuffed with all the extra blankets and pillows to keep it up. Ive ordered my brand new mattress, but they said it can take up to 2 weeks. I so cant wait though!

Kids and I went to the movies today. Then afterwards to the store. I picked up a new Lamp. I wanted a tall floor lamp, but something not plain, that matched my new style. So I got a duo pack. Wrought iron floor and a table lamp. I also bought bedding for my oldest sons room. I had a plan to buy something else. But when I saw this set today I had to get it. Its like a Oriental theme, Black and White and gray, with chinese letters and dragons. So its more age appropriate and not little boy like, so he can use it awhile. And it was cheaper then what I originally was going to buy.

I also picked up a few house decor items. I was browsing televisions. But the weather was cool and drizzlign when we got in the store and my cart was full with the lamps and bedding. Thank goodness I didnt get anymore! It was pouring when we left the store! It was bad, I was drenched, I wasnt dressed for the wet weather either, Suede brown leather jacket and open toe shoes ( it was warm and sunny when we left for the movie earlier)

So we had to rush to get all the stuff in the vehicle and I was drenched, I just shut the door and went “OOOOOOOOO BRRRRRRRRRRRR” really loud and shuddered. It was so wet and we were rushing, I was throwing all teh stuff at the kids we bought, in a fun manner going “Here! Hold this! Get that!” and so when I got in we all cracked up and just laughed. It felt good and nice to hear my kids laugh. You know sometimes as parents we forget to just have fun and laugh at life. So we just laughed.

Got home and they were so helpful and wanting to carry everything in for me and my little one wanted to help me assemble the lamp.

Ive had a thing lately for Sting and old Police hits, so I found an album today at the store. I like Sting, his voice is so beautiful.

Ive really gotta chill on spending. Im gonna run out before I know it! So I gotta really chill. We all have our dental appointments next month, and I owe $75 still when the mattress arrives. And I have the other credit card bill Im waiting for it to arrive to pay it off.

I just need to keep my buffering cushion always there for the year like I did last year on those months I am struggling. Be good Victoria! Its just nice to have money, buy what you want, take the kids out, I miss that type of freedom,

Last night I sent B an email before I logged off that just said “I miss you, siggghhhhhh” and that was it. Well he called during the movie today, so I got his message after we got out, he said he got my email and that he missed me too. And just rambled on about what he was doing to his car. When I got home there was a phone message there from him too, and he responded to my email with “I love yewwwwww”

I still havent talked to him though.

Yeah I know hes off doing stuff, Im different, if ya miss someone, you make a way to see them? Anyways, I wont dwell in that.

Kids are watching Disney movie on tv Emperors New Groove. I set up my new lamps. Im in my warm jammies in the office with the lil black and white tv that gets only one channel in here! haha, So American Dreams is on. Later Ill watch Anna Nicole. Its cold tonight! Brrrrr!

Havent seen any of music dude online last nite or today, so hes off with his woman Im gathering.

Oh! And last night my cell phone was ringing and woke me up. It was late too! Like after 2am or so??? So I got out of bed wondering whos calling and message beep went off. I was so out of it and thought maybe it was B, but B would call me on my home phone first?? So I go and listen. Its Mr Comedy???? What the heck? Hes been really strange. We dont talk much, and then he calls me when Im in class on Wed ( I told him twice thats my class nite Im not gonna answer) And then to call in the middle of the nite like that? And his message was of no importance or anything to really say.

Duh?

So here I am. Another day, another night sleeping alone with nobody to cuddle with on the couch.

Sigh, let all this war crap be over and just bring Military dude back.