Rainy Day

Dear Diary,

Well its Day 2, its been pouring rain, all my planters are flooded, and the street curbs are like little rivers, which is very rare to see in the desert. We dont get much rain here.

It was so dark and cloudy this AM, makes it hard to get out of bed, but oh how I miss the feeling of being in a lovers arms on a rainy day. That was a good memory of the Ex and I when we dated and he lived in a travel trailer and listening to the sound of the rain hitting the roof.

Well today would be my 10th Wedding Anniv to my Ex.

Im doing ok, its a little bittersweet and all, I so wish things werent this way, that we could talk and all ya know? I will admit I have been thinking of him the past 2 days, wondering how he is? Wishing we could talk as friends. Its so weird how life has changed.

I invited B last night to come out and have dinner with me and stay the night. He said Ok and then on the phone last night said hed talk to me tomorrow to work out the plans. I just wonder if he will come, since the weather is so bad and the commute, so part of me thinks he may say he doesnt want to drive in the rain. So I have already decided I will paint my office if he doesnt come out. I just have the one wall left to paint and to patch the holes from the shelves my sister took down for me.

Well lets see what else. Not sure if I wrote about my hair. I got it colored last week. I went a more lighter shade of red, instead of a burgundyish color. I like it, and thicker highlights. My hair feels so soft now since the ends are all trimmed.

Ive also been in the gym regularly. I just really need to work on my stomach/abs, and I so hate doing those exercises So I generally skip them. I have been doing cardio and working on my arms and legs, but the middle will need its turn. 🙂 I really want to get in better shape and my tummy is the part I hide.

Well still no word on court from the attny office. ::Sigh:: Not sure when I will hear, Ive called 3 times and they said they will call me when they get word since the Attny was sick.

Oh, just talked to B online, hes at home today, the rain is so bad, and there are multiple accidents, his hour drive was gonna take like 3 hrs to work so he went back home and called work. He takes a busy freeway and yesterday it was on the news for a big rig accident, its the weather and the freeway, people out here dont know how to drive in rain.

Well my friend D and I spoke on Monday. Havent heard from her since. But things are getting ugly and messy and I must say Stupid.

She got a emergency restraining order, called me Sun AM to tell me and that she had custody of the kids. But we didnt talk long. She called the police again and had things taken care of.

But she went on to tell me about the fight with her ex, and her jumping the wall into the neighbors yard, she took his video camera to hawk it to sell since she has no money and is locked out of all the bank accts. He came after her over the wall and she threatened to drop it in the pool and he tackled her on the ground and she said she had scratches all over her and on her neck. She went to the nearby medical center and called the police. So this is the 3rd time shes called police in the past month or so.

So tues he got another Ex parte hearing on her and she didnt know what was going to happen. But come to find out after she got the restraining order she has the guy over shes having a thing with and around her kids and staying there. ::::UGH:::

You know I understand the confusion and wanted to be loved, and cheating, but I told her you have to be careful with children. I kept B away from all of that. And plus her ex got a restraining order that the guy couldnt be around the kids, so hes calling the house asking hte kids if this guy is there and the kids dont want to answer, they are in the middle of this (The oldest is 8)

And neither of them have even filed for divorce!

So I have no idea what the court did with them tuesday, they keep this up the kids will be taken away.

Its just wild, here is a couple in their 40s, nice upper class neighborhood and now they are both just freaking out and acting stupid. I think they are both are acting that way and shes hurting herself, I told her “You gotta figure out what you want to do” Like divorce???? Get that going, keep the guy away from the kids in the meantime, shes just not thinking, 🙁

And those poor kids being around all this.

There is more that she told me I wont write since its personal but she got in the emergency restraining order, and I told her I would think they would want to investigate these claims and have evaluations on him and the children. Knowing the way the courts work and the claims she made.

Well gonna go for now.