Sleepover at Bs

Dear Diary,

Well I decorated all eve yesterday. But my nose was runny. I was feeling a little sicky but nothing too bad, wasnt sure if it was animal allergies from the party house or if Im coming down with something.

I got a lot done, but opened up the Christmas decorations to find my Ex’s stocking. His mother made all of our stocking, and did embrodiery of all our names on them. It was just weird looking at his. Bleh. It actually made me angry. I am going to send it with the kids when they go see him for the holidays.

Also most of my tree ornaments are from my ex’s side of the family. I mean most were given as gifts to me, and his Mom and I always got one another an ornament each year. I opened the box of ornaments she got for me last year. Even though Ex and I were apart, we spent the holidays together and were back to just being separated over Christmas. I didnt go to the holiday family event with him and the kids for his side. I didtn want to to go to be honest. I stayed home and worked. But his mom sent back 4 ornaments for me. I am starting to collect those pretty glass type ones. More like old ornaments styles. I have several now. Just all different things. Santas, A VW Bug, Fruit, I also have an Elephant. Hes really adorable. I bought him at the Rainforest Cafe at the Mall of America when I saw my Ex over New Years the last time we were together. 🙁 So that was a little strange to look at.

Its just weird looking back. Its sad. But I dont want to go back to it, but its sad that it couldnt be fixed. 🙁

Well I was to head out to B’s. I was feeling kinda icky but wanted to be with him. So I left a little after 11pm. I got there and he was already home from work. I just got right into his bed and rolled over and closed my eyes. He was playing a video game on his computer. I didnt mind, he was just winding down after getting in from work. I am starting to see how we have been together long enough now that we are being more relaxed, more every day about things, so normally are time together is totally focused on US and being together, But I just crawled in his bed to sleep. He said “You didnt have to come if you didnt feel good” I said “Im here, shhhhh” 🙂

Oh God but his room! It stunk! I commented on it right away. He said “Yeah I know I havent really been here for the past 2 weeks, I come in, sleep, change, then head to work, so the room has been closed up not aired out and all my dirty laundry is sitting here.” I made him light a candle cause it smelled raunchy and I had a stuffy nose! Ick.

We just drifted off to sleep. But I was awoken shortly after 1am by the woman and her husband YELLING again. I swear these people are nuts. I dont care for them after what Ive witnessed. B even said to me “Im sorry” as he was woken up by it also. Im not mad at him, not his fault. Its just a bad place to live. Im sure its reminiscent for him of living back at home, it also reminded me of my parents and how I moved out. B and I both cannot stand living with our parents. B had a drinking problem until he moved out of his Moms house. He was drinking to cope with living there. And all the time we dated, his apartment, his last female roomie. B rarely drank. I mean we did socially. But the places were nice. The woman he lived with was nice and a nurturing type woman, and there was her teenage daughter. I do miss that place also. B does too. Its probably the best place he lived in his life to be honest. Other then his year living in Nashville.

I then woke up to the baby crying. Its only about 3 weeks old now. It was in the AM, so I know it was waking for the morning feeding. But it was crying for so long. Im used to babies crying, but I was wondering when someone was going to come and get it! It was doing that shrill hard as you can cry cry. And after a bit I started to feel upset listening to it and wondering where the hell the parents were and how long theyd let that baby cry. Finally it went quiet so someone must have got it or it just was so exhausted from crying.

B and I woke up around 8:30, talked a little, then fell back asleep till about 11am. It was just nice to be lazy.

We finally got up to shower, in the bathroom was the womans clothes and her childrens all over the floor, but he gross part was blood stained underwear and clothes just laying in the open. Yuck.

You know I would describe these people as Trailer Trash in a nice home and neighborhood. Their Dad died 2 yrs ago, so the kids got the house and the business. And its a nice place and nice part of town. We got up to head out to eat and she informs B he is working today at 2:30pm. I was just observing and B never said he had to work. It was 1pm when she said this. So we walked out the door and I said “Did you know you were working?” hes all NO? And said “Theres something really bad or miscommunication going on between here and I” So I knew B was upset. He didnt realize what time it was, He planned to work on his brakes, which arent working. Now I knew he cant. And well all he had time was for lunch then to get home and get ready to work again. When we got back the woman had some lady friend over. Shes pregnant I guess, talking about splitting with her man, and the woman B lives with is telling her, “Well rent out your condo so you can save it, you can live here and rent a room for awhile” And then she went on this speech about how people think shes a bad mom, and on and on. Im just like “Oh lady you have no idea what this woman is like, sure come live here and find out!”

And she wants to hire a nanny. My God I cant see what decent person would work there who loves kids. Id report her or quit if it was me. Id have some serious words with her.

Anyways she asked if Id stay around to hang out with her when B left for work, I said I had to get home to get my christmas tree. I think maybe she wanted me to stay? I personally dont want too. I hope to God B moves out of their soon. Its a bad place.

Came home and bought the tree, and managed to do it all by myself, get it in the stand and all after 2 failed tries and it tipping over! Haha. Its hard with one person to do, get it centered and tighten the screws.

Omgosh Im sooo tired all the sudden, I still feel slightly sick, that worn down feeling, so Im gonna go lay down. Its Anna Nicoles Christmas special tonight! haha Gotta watch!

Byeeeee

PS. Things are going nicely with B. It feels really good. I love him. 🙂