Pamper Me
Dear Diary,
Ugh! up at 6:30am! I went to bed around 1am! I was up watching that show Cheaters. I was about to cry with the poor woman. Her boyfriend was having sex with the girl babysitting their son. And the whole confrontation mess. The babysitter said “He doesnt want you, hes gonna leave you for me!” and the girlfriend says “No he doesnt, to him your just a piece of ass!” and so it ends up with the sitter saying “Tell her! Tell her you love me and your gonna leave her for me” the guy says “Uh no, I never said that, I dont love you, your just a piece of ass” omgosh! The sitter yells out “But you were my first!” and ends up running out crying. Then the girlfriend told the guy he didnt live there any longer and to leave.
She was crying so much and hurting. He was fooling around with his child home with this sitter and lying saying he was at work. EEEKS!
I forgot to write last night. I made an appt to get a neck and shoulder massage today at 11:30. My neck and shoulders have become tense again. Ive been doing really well havent had problems like this since last year. But I think its the whole legal stuff, dealing with the ex, thats causing it. I know Im dealing with anger. And I have to get some help with this. I talk and write, but the anger is still consuming me. Im not really worried about acting out or doing something stupid. Its more of the toll this anger takes on me personally.
So I had to treat myself. I wanted the hour long massage but price was too high for my budget right now. So Ill get the 30 min one! Ohhh I cant wait! I havent had a massage this year! Last year I got several.
B didnt call last night. I think since I never called him back or I dotn leave him voice mails. Or he just got in late.
Im nervous, I need to write him this letter. I need to get that out so as to alleviate the awkwardness when we talk so he knows whats up with me.
I also need to sit down today and do all the figures for a new proposal to the ex. Bleh, not looking forward to it, but gotta do it again.
I also read something in the Child Support book last night I read. It said send your ex a Invoice each month. Of what he owes you and break it down. I can do it through email. Doesnt mean it will work but its a constant reminder to him. So I think I may start doing that, It will actually be good for my records also I can print a copy month to month for my folder.
Well thats it for now, leave in a few hrs for my massage! YAY!