Night With Him

Dear Diary,


Evening.


Its about 7:15pm. Just hanging out, relaxing in my office watching TV. Kids are watching cartoons, bedtime soon.


Well I cleaned up house last night, then B arrived around 10pm. We got comfy in bed and watched some tv and snuggled. Turned the TV off and put the ocean waves sound from my clock on.


We just snuggled, talked and made love. When he took his shirt off and was laying in my bed, he kept grabbing his stomach and sides, grabbing the skin and pulling on it.


B has put on weight. Im not sure how much. I dont ask. I love him however he is. But its very visible the weight gain. His body confidence is down of course. His arms used to bulge and look so nice. He was slimming down well, often wearing tight tshirts that he looked so delicious in.


He keeps saying hes getting fat. Yes he is putting on weight, but he knows what to do about it, weight has been an issue for him. Hes not huge or anything to me, but he has been more heavy at different periods in his life. But he has stayed pretty fit the whole time we have dated.


I guess Im so sensitive about issues. B has told me to say things if he needs to work out or is gaining weight, etc. But I just dont feel its my place?


We fell asleep. Had to wake up about 5:30am, he took a fast shower, then had to head out for work. He told me how “yummy” I was. He was shocked I was getting up to walk him to the door. I kissed him and hugged him goodbye.


I got to go back to bed for another hour, then up and ready for my day. Mom took both kids since it was a holiday. So I went into work 30 min early so I could get off earlier.


I was working and all the sudden hear my Ex’s voice in the office next door. Had no idea he was coming in, normally the guy up front always pops me a message or the secretary saying hes there. So I had no idea. He talked loud as usual, and he and the woman laughed(the chick I wrote about in a previous entry that he used to work with) He kept coming down to her office, and talking loud and laughing and making jokes, using his humor/charm. It was nauseating for me. And the fact that he is LOUD so I can hear, and so is she. I then overheard him say something about bleeding and having to get 29 stitches. So not sure if he got hurt? Ill find out tomorrow at the attorney meeting when I see him.


He walked by my office twice, I never looked up so I actually never saw him, just heard him.


B called me while at work today, Which was nice. 🙂 He said he is going back to his high protein diet again and today is his starting day, so he had to go shopping after work to stock up on the foods. He also said he needs to get back in the gym. So Im proud of him for starting back. 🙂


I wrote ex an email after work today, he was home already so wasnt there very long I saw his name online. So I reminded him of the appointment at my attny tomorrow and asked if he was coming. Wanted to make sure didnt want to pay for a meeting if hes not gonna show.


He responded and said yes then he goes on to say… “So are we divorced yet? I heard it takes 6 mos from the date of filing, which would have been Oct 16, so are we divorced?”


::::Sigh::::


Just goes to show you how bright this man is. He thinks once 6 mos has passed we are divorced? Without filing the paperwork??????? DUH!


I told my Mom what he said, she laughed. Its just so typical of my ex. He doesnt understand things. Im like didnt he ever talk to his attorney about this??? But my mom said “Victoria, its the way hes always been, he doesnt pay attention to details”


So I told Ex we could discuss this with the attorney. His emails were a little cheerful.


So tomorrow after work is the big day! I have no idea what my ex wants or where his head is? Is he going to just back off and settle and stop trying to argue over things. Or is he gonna disagree and stomp off? I never know with him. So Im just prepared for anything!


PRAYERS EVERYONE! PLEASE! Pray it will end there, and no more court!

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