Wanna be Pressed up Against him Grrrrr
Dear Diary,
Ugh today is sooo dead! I cant wait to go home! Well more like get home, clean up, pack myself and the kids for the weekend then gas up, eat, drive to get B, drive back, thennn ahhhh. I get to see my honey and well ya know its been 2 weeks of no physical contact. :::Big smiles::: Sighhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
Ever found someone you just love to make love to? Its really wonderful. How compatible we are, how much we have learned about eachother physically. How I thought what I had was close with my ex sexually but had no idea to be honest. B is a wonderful lover, always has been. He has piercings in WONDERFUL places. 🙂 He says “Im a Freak” I dont think so at all. Yes he goes to work in a dress shirt, slacks, professional attire. But in reality hes a jeans and sleeveless tshirt guy with his doc Martins. Ever since hes stopped working out I can tell he isnt dressing like he used to. His tight shirts showing off his arms. Mmmmmm. I miss it. Him flexing for me. Weather is getting cooler so only get to see his body when we are in bed. He isnt walking around shirtless anymore. Seeing his nipple piercings and tattoos on his arms. Mmmmm
OK I MISS HIM! Ugh he better be in a good mood when I get him! Not Mr tired and grumpy! Cause I just wanna love on him. Kiss him in the parking lot at his work before we leave. I plan to swing by Arbys before I leave town. Ill pick him up something also cause Im sure he will be starving and he gets low blood sugar like myself which can make him irritable.
I woke up this AM in bed, pressed the paw of the Teddy Bear he gave me while ago. It has his voice recorded that says “Hi Babe, Dont forget that I love you” Sighhhhhhhhhhhhh
Music dude is talking to me online right now. Lately he keeps mentioning smoking pot, well he just told me “I just did a bong hit” hes at work! I know its the night club business, but geesh! Im a bit turned off by this. Just things you start to see about a person you didnt know before. He told me “Well I dont use it to cope, I just use it for fun” Ummm yeah good excuse. NOT. He told me he did it every once in awhile, well lately it seems to be part of the norm. And he has a history with addictions, we discussed this, ah well. I just told him I was concerned as a friend, to watch it, and that I wont say anymore about it. I do care about him, but his choice. Just a reminder to me that he isnt good for me to be around and its best things have gone the way that they have.
Well its 3pm. I leave soon, and take kids to Moms at 5:30 then Im on the road to see my Man!
YAY! Gosh have I said how much Ive missed him? :::giggles:::