Got a Call

Dear Diary,

I took the kids to the fair last night. We were there for almost 4 hours. They had a fun time and would have loved to have stayed longer, but it was past their bedtime and school in the morning. But this was their first year having wrist bands and unlimited rides. Mommy got sick on the Tilt A Whirl and I was done with rides for the eve! But we laughed so hard spinning on that one, its just really fun to laugh with your kids, they enjoy just seeing me laugh like that.

My little one loved the scary ride. My oldest hated it. Just funny to watch your children’s personalities. My little one points to the bungee rope area and says “Mom when Im a teenager Im gonna do that” and you know what? Im quite positive he will. He is a daredevil and always has been. My oldest is much like me, hes very senstive also. We get excitement through calmer methods.

We had bbq roasted sweet corn on the cob dipped in garlic butter, mmmmm. Fresh squeezed lemonade. And I took a huge Cinnamon roll with cream cheese home with me. Im so glad we got to do that together. I have started to live life, Not always wait for B or someone to be available for me to do things with. Granted I wish he could have gone with, but I still had fun without him. But there were a few moments where I wished I had his hand to hold. Or to laugh or to give him a hug and a kiss. The fair here has been a tradition ever since I was a little kid. So its one of the big deals around here.

We also went through the exhibits, we got some free cake and the kids got to decorate crackers with frosting tubes from the cake ladies.

We also watched the silly Hypnotist show. They have had these for years. I used to stay away from them back when ex and I were in the legalistic phase of being christians. Then a few years ago he and I sat and watched one. It was hilarious. So they had the young guys thinking they were NSync so my kids got a kick out of that.

I ran into my long time childhood friend and his wife and 2 kids also.

I was very busy on Sunday, got up and mowed the front lawn, raked, cleaned out the planters, trimmed back all the vines that were overgrown up near my front door. I swept the backyard area by the back door, sprayed it all down, everything looked so nice and clean. I then rearranged some of the junk in the garage and made more room in there. Then washed my Jeep, then cleaned my living room, whew! I was busy yesterday! And the kids played outside almost ALL DAY long which was nice, with very little bickering. I love days like that, it made it easy for me to get things done and its nice seeing them play so well together.

B and I spoke online and on the phone a little yesterday. Its like there wasnt a lot to say between us. Heck we had been together so much prior. But that was ok, I am feeling a change personally regarding the relationship with him. Less needy, not always feeling he doesnt love me or care if hes not available. Im also finding Im starting to welcome some distance. Interesting eh? But all in all I think these are good changes. 🙂 Ha I just hope we dont switch roles! Aint that the way life works sometimes?

This week will be a busy one since I leave Thurs AM for Vegas with B! So between work, gym and all the errands I have to do, plus a dental appt for youngest on Wed. EEks I told B I need to make a list since Im so frazzled. I did take my Jeep by this AM and had the brakes looked at, they are fine he said, whew, I have had a slight squeel noise when I brake and he said that isnt totally uncommon but if it keeps it up and gets loud then come back in that they are under warranty. He also did a free tire rotation for me. 🙂

My mom left today. Shes going to stay at my sisters in Long Beach until Wed. Which is a first! I hope the visit goes well. My siblings have been having issues with Mom, but my middle sis is a lot softer about it and not bitter like the others, but I wonder if she is going to tackle head on some issues with my mom while she is there or if it will just be a visit. But in any case, I know my oldest sis is very angry and bitter and feels mom doesnt care about her. I said the last call “Do you guys ever just ask her to come over? Invite her?” She is upset that she even has to do that. ::Shrug:: My mom feels like she is a burden for whatever reason and that everyones lives are too busy, but Ive never heard her turn down a invite, so? 🙂

So she is getting to spend time with the other grandchildren.

On another note, my old group moderator from the shelter called me yesterday on my cell and left me a message to see how I was and to call him.

I had to keep reminding myself “Do not make assumptions”

I love the guy, he was a big part of my help all last year with what has occurred with my ex and leaving him. He has heard me week after week, and I have had a one on one and 2 phones calls. He has since left the place.

Well I called him about a week and a half ago and he round about asked me if Im ever free for lunch. I said Id call him when I have some time. I also asked if he gets many calls from any of us. He said “No I didnt give out my number to very many people you are one of the special ones”

I guess Im getting weird feelings from him. And I guess the fact that he called ME is what struck me off guard. Granted he doesnt work there anymore, I havent called back yet. I will, I guess I need to see first off wants. He said on his voice mail he left for me” Its wonderful to hear your voice,i hope all is well, give me a call, i can certainly take your call, would love to hear from, hope all is well, again take care of yourself”

So umm guess Ill be off, things to do, and will have to call that guy shortly to see whats up.

Later