My Day
Dear Diary,
Had a dream last night that B asked me to marry him in Vegas at the end of the month on our trip out. And I was dumbfounded and in shock that he wanted to marry me now?? And it was like I was all uncomfortable and trying to avoid talking to him.
I got a little more sleep then usual last night, but still need more. My routine will officially change on Monday with it being the kids first day of school. Work hours will go back to normal, no more mom at my house everyday watching the kids, back to my regular afternoon gym routine, I look forward to it. 🙂
I guess B has talked about possibly working as an apprentice to the mechanic whos helping him work on his Jeep. Oh! By the way he should have all the work done today! So Im happy for him, next he needs to buy new tires, register, smog, insure it and all that. But he hasnt been getting very many work hours so not sure how soon he will do it all. But the mechanic flirted with him with ideas of working for him. Im not sure that I can see B as a mechanic kinda guy. I even asked him “Can you handle being banged up and dirty?” He said “I dont know” B is a person who takes care of his body, he hates having dirty nails, hands and all that, and well just from this week his hands are full of gashes and scratches and black. Its cool with me, I just wanted him to think first and not place himself into something he will hate.
We had all the major tv news stations here yesterday. It was weird to see. The highschool has a welcome back sign up for the girls that were kidnapped, it made me want to cry just seeing it. A good happy cry though that they were rescued. But now they have said the 2 girls were raped. I cant imagine what they went through, they spent 12 hrs with that man before police shot and killed him and the girls were rescued. And were minors 15 and 16.
The spot where they were parked/abducted with the guys is well known, it goes way back, heck my siblings probably parked there to make out also. In this area there are so many spots like that. Thats actually how my first ever encounter happened when dating my ex. He took me out to area like that for my first sexual encounter. But even looking back, at about the last few years of our marriage my ex always loved going and driving on all these open space desert dirt roads. I love to explore old houses that are sitting vacant, but going out at night to get frisky in these parts? Well I actually couldnt do it anymore, the last few times he tried I was too scared and paranoid, and it was exactly of someone coming upon us and being in a dark place and isolated. Who knows what kind of people and sickos could be out there. A man was following me and my ex once in the Angeles Mountain area, and he said “Can I watch?” at one point, we werent even doing anything but we immediatley got back to the vehicle and got out of there. And that mountain is I believe where the cheerleader Linda Sobek the model was murdered.
Its sad, you just cant have that safety and trust anymore and feel free. But the man was shot dead. He was already charged with raping his 19 yr old stepdaughter and had a warrant and was on the run. What good would he do sitting in jail? My personal opinion is its better off for everyone hes GONE. Those girls maybe werent murdered, but to be raped? He killed a part of them doing so, 🙁