Makes Me Sad
Dear Diary,
My lil heart aches,
Mixed between feelings of care and feelings of anger.
I dont like feeling this way about you.
The person who helped me thru the year
Yet where have you gone?
You won the prize? No more efforts to be done?
The same man who walked to a train station, bummed a ride, arrove into town after 11pm in the cold and walked 2 miles to my door.
Now I hear about how tired he is, how he doesnt want to spend his money here or there, how hes a kid.
Yeah I guess he is, but why did he revert back, he was going in a different direction, Now I feel like he just quit trying.
Im so hurt at times I want to last out with venomish words to tell him how I feel. Yet I refrain because what good will they do? Only to have him retaliate back and then both of us wounded? I guess I cant help at times, wanting to smack him upside the head with a harsh dose of reality.
What happened?
It makes me so sad.