Visiting Convalescent Home
Dear Diary,
Just got home little bit ago from church. I had a good day. I met at 3 for the “Day of Service” at the church. 5 of us went to one convalescent home. I basically went with a group of people I didnt know nor had ever met except this one guy who used to go to my old church back in 96. He didnt seem to remember me but we had a mutual friend in common.
So our group of 5 headed over to the Convalescent home. 3 girls, 2 guys. The other 2 girls had to leave early for Drama practice. So we go into the home and its a little awkward at first trying to mingle in and visit, but soon we all went our way. I first went and sat with a woman who was in bed. She couldnt hear well, nor speak well. Sadly just picked her nose. But she did say a few legible things to me “The wind is blowing” and so I just sat next to her and touched her hand. Looked at her pictures, talked to her a little bit then waved goodbye and she waved back to me.
I then went out to the center hallway area where the 2 guys from our group were with 2 old ladies. One of the guys had brought some books, I guess hes an author. And was giving away copies. I glanced down and recognized the title. I said “Hey I want one” haha. It clicked Id see this guys name in the gym newsletter. They are promoting his book. Then he mentioned his highschool. Same school as myself. So we were both “What year?” He graduated about 4 yrs before me. I was kinda wow. Hes young looking, I thought maybe younger than me. Then he says “Well then since you went to same school you know that woman right there” and it turned out our school librarian lives in this Convalescent home. Wow she was so thin I didnt even know it was her. And she carried a High School Yearbook on her walker. I looked down and it was my Senior Year Yearbook. I didnt know that was her last year at the school. So she asked me to point myself out and sign my picture. So we talked to her for quite awhile about school days and such. It was a nice visit. I would like to go back again.
Church tonight was a worship and share open Mic nite, It was really cool. Afterwards my Friend C’s wife asked me out next Saturday. Yay! And they also asked me out after church but my kids were so grumpy and tired I had to pass and go home. But told them they will have to come over one eve after church.
It was a nice time. Its this new life for me. I was always a part of church with my Ex. Im no longer a part of him and in a place where only 2 Im aware of there even knew my Ex, its refreshing not having to deal with old baggage and stuff about my Ex. Im an individual, No longer “So and so’s wife” And to be honest I like it. I can finally be me and not just a backdrop to someone. Also the fact that Im confidant enough in myself and comfy enough to go on my own is nice. Although I do wonder if boyfriend will ever come and check it out? Dunno. But if I keep this up Im going to develop I wide new core of new friends. And Im slowly moving back into this. Today I met several people and so tonight as I left I had new people coming up to say bye and speak to me, which was nice that Im not just a person who comes and goes.
Well talking to boyfriend online now so Ill head out.