Why cant he stop? :(

Dear Diary,

🙁 Yesterday I was thinking to myself. Wow I have counseling once a week now. Things are pretty mellow with the Ex as of late. Hmmm wonder if we will ever be friends and on good terms? I was thinking , well what will I talk about in counseling this week?

I get a phone call at about 2pm today on my cell phone. Its boyfriend. He informs me my Ex came into the chat room he goes too, mind you boyfriend personally knows most of the people there in real life. As do I , but he has more history and contact. He then proceeds to say to Boyfriend in the chat room “Sooo are you gonna be a good father to my child????” Boyfriend told him if he had something to say to him to do it privately and that his behavior was inappropriate. He left the room. He said a female AIM started to IM him asking if he had a girlfriend and hitting on him and he kept telling her off, so he found it odd this woman kept coming on to him. He said “Well for someone who thinks Im a jackass you keep trying to talk to me” The person responded “Well for someone who works in a ******* you sure arent very friendly(insert boyfriends name here?” So boyfriend proceeded to call me and tell me what Ex had done and said “I think you need to be aware of this” I said I was sorry, and I said thanks for telling me.

I felt terrible that he had done this that he would intrude into his life now. I talked with coworker, she said “Huney you havent been speaking to him or responding to him, so hes trying any method he can to get to you. Just dont respond to any of it, and this boyfriend has to know this about your Ex, Im sure you have told him enough that he knows what hes in for” Im not worried I guess about Boyfriend, hes got bigger balls then my Ex ever had. And hes never once been scared, that isnt his nature.

After talking to boyfriend I checked my work email and found a letter from Ex saying “Im so glad you found your godly man, May god bless the both of you” with a link to boyfriends silly online profile. He had a profile that was just a mockery of profiles but none of it was true.

Why cant he just leave it all alone. Why does he have to act stupid like this? God is it going to get a lot worse than this? Is he going to stalk me and all that like he did when I left him when we were dating???? I have the comfort knowing he is out of state, but he does return for visits. I just dont want this anymore. I wish hed leave me alone, stop acting like an idiot around the children and just get himself a life. ::::Cries::::

This is what he wants, he wants to get to me. I am not responding to any of this, and Im so proud of the boyfriend for the way he handled it all. He also took down the profile online and just stuck a photo up. Its really cute, Its just a huge picture of this cartoon guy he loves winking. Boyfriend said to me “Its sorta my way of saying FUCK YOU to your Ex, but in a classy way. Haha. I mean Ex prolly wont even get it since its just this cartoon guy and no words. But I knew right away what it meant. But I commend him for taking down all the profile and all the info out of his other one and homepage. Neither of us need to be messed with or harrassed or have our info passed out to friends or family. Which hes done in the past.

By the way, I talked to boyfriend about the topic I had concern over. It went very well. But I dont feel like posting that now. But everything is ok and we had a good talk. I dont know why Im always so scared to bring up things? I fear the worst, but he listens to me, we converse and actually talk thru things.