Ahh Good things come my Way

Dear Diary,

Ahhh somewhat of a moment to stop and type out my thoughts. Been busy. Yesterday the boss lady came in so we had a good long talk. I always enjoy talking to her but get absolutely zero work done.

Picked up the kids and we headed to the pet store for more rat food. The little rat has grown some and she is a little silly thing. She jumps out of her cage to the cage edging when you open it. And she loves running back and forth from my arms to the kids arms. She is a little sweetie and does well with the children. Im glad we have her since she is easy to care for and the kids can handle her. While at the pet store the kids had a blast. My oldest stayed glued to the front cage containing to Husky pups. He fell in love and didnt leave there side. He had already named one and was talking to them. Meanwhile the little one was over talking to the huge Parrot who starting squawking at him and scaring him, haha. It was just nice to look at all the animals and the kids enjoyed it. But of course I heard “Mom can we get a dog?” on the way out. Nooo we already have one I have to tell them, and our dog doesnt do well with sharing his space. That is why my sister couldnt keep him because she had 3 dogs and the dog would fight with the others and had to be tied up. I was watching some show about animals not being, ummm whats the word? But exposed to other dogs as puppies and how that affects them. So he just does not do well with ANY dog. But hes awesome with children?

We got home and I was feeling domestic and actually didnt turn the computer one once after work! I made Turkey to put inside Pita Bread, mmmmm. Then I proceeded to thouroughly clean my kitchen. I scrubbed all the counter tops and moved things around, washed off the fridge, mopped the floor. Dang I had a bug last night! The boyfriend said he would come over later after the kids had gone to bed. So I just spent time cleaning up, started on one bathroom and my oldest totally cleaned his room. So was nice having some order.

Boyfriend came and we had a nice romantic quiet evening. I have taken up drinking coffee drinks now and then thanks to him. All of these interesting new flavors and drinks. Im still not a coffee person and I dont have to have it. No lie, up until the boyfriend I could count on 2 hands how many times I had a coffee type drink. But he works at a Coffee Place so cant help but learn new things. He said he stopped into work for the drink before he came over and 3 of the employees harassed him “Ohhh dont we look nice, and where are we going hmmmmm? Gotta hot date?” heehee He is so cute. They picked at him for awhile then he said “I dont have to take this” all silly like and blushing and walked out. I know he likes it, I know he likes having a girlfriend. 🙂

Boyfriend and I passed out, then I was awoken by some shuffling at about 5:30 am. I just snuggled up to him and wrapped my arms around him, he responded “Ahhh I was just coming to do the same to you” He kissed my hand and said “I love you” and we just drifted back to sleep. ahhhhhhhh 🙂 One thing with us is other than the first 2 nights we ever slept in the same together ever, we both sleep incredibly well. He is normally up late due to his job but he has no prob sleeping when we are together.

I got up, got youngest to school, ran oldest to new sitter, showered, kissed boyfriend goodbye and headed to my first counseling session thru the outreach center. COOOOOL! I get one on one counseling for free! I have spent this whole last year grasping at what I can for $45 1 hr sessions and not able to find something for me in my situation, then as a result of my womens group finding out that once we complete so many sessions we can get one on one counseling with a REAL therapist. So I went in today. I will see her every week and she will be there to assist me in the whole divorce process, with issues with my children, and then she said we will go into my family background, why I choose the type of man that I did and learning to not repeat the past. YAY! Im just so happy, so many doors have just became wide open to me. So many wonderful good things here! I could write a major list of blessings that have come my way. Sad part is many people dont know about these avenues that are open to them. Im also going to probably attend a anger management class myself, they urged us to take it also because of the marriages we were in and how we have learned dysfunctional ways to live in abusive relationships. Its not just a class for people who are abusive but for anyone he said. So I signed up. I swear the guy who does these groups is excellent. Im not sure how long he has been a volunteer and its all mainly women there, but he does a good job. Hes very direct, smart and in your face in a way that is needed. And I must say he is the first man over 50 I have ever known and actually found attractive 🙂 I usually look at older men and go EH. But I think its due to the fact that he doesnt look that old either.

So my session went well. We discussed telling my children about the divorce, about helping them thru this time, and from what I told her, which I already new is that my EX is manipulating the children communicating thru them to get to me by doing things. She said that I need to stress it to my Ex, weekly if I have to, by email or something “We both agreed not to say anything derogatory to the children about the other parent” Which he has not been doing. I also called the attorneys office and told her about the last 2 checks not clearing so they are going to request I get my payments thru his employer. YAY THank God. And I also requested that all papers sent to his work be sent certified since he is claiming nothing has arrived (Lie Im sure)

We also discussed the boyfriend factor and she also agreed it was best to wait till the divorce is finalized before intergrating him into the childrens lives, and also we discussed what to say and how to talk to them.

So Im in a good mood. Boyfriend works 3 nights in a row so Im sure I wont see him all weekend. I told the kids wed go see a movie. So not sure which night we will go. And I plan to do some more house cleaning and organizing, weather has been nice lately, so Im looking forward to a relaxing weekend.