Laying across the bed in my tiny shorts and tank top, writing words on paper by candelight.
You came home from work, you said I was gorgeous.
So many fears go thru my head. Tears were shed earlier.
You werent there for them. You didnt know. You were tired yourself.
Sleep sweet Sleep
How I didnt want it to end.
But alas it did.
I was faced with those grinning faces, telling me about Her.
I didnt want to hear, I didnt acknowledge. I didnt want to hear, No stop stop I just dont want to know, PLEASE just dont tell me.
Those grinning faces didnt know any better, didnt realize what they were saying, what pain I was feeling.
I held back the crying.
Comfort to a some degree has returned. With soft smiles, gentle hugs, and ponderous questions filling my evenings. How wonderful it is to behold.